Some Wonderful

Picture of perfection

2007-11-27T10:25:00.000-08:00

For the 1st time in my life, I like the feeling of being 'with' someone. When I looked at that pic it gave me a sense of belonging: "He is the one" feeling. I was nuts bout romeo. Really liked Prof but No1 this way. I dont love him but I like the feeling I get looking at him. He's the kind of person I've wanted.

When I combined those pics & gave it this effect, it looked like the perfect couple. If I wasnt me, I wd have said that they look complementary. Made for each other kind! I might be over-estimating, over-joining & dreaming but that was my opinion. :S

I've changed so much. I always hated the idea of having someone else standing next to me. But not yesterday. . .

The accident

2006-08-14T00:22:00.000-07:00

survival begins and flourishes with the ability to forgive and forget... 'move on' and there's no better time to start than now...It hurts but there's always a whole lot of life left and a way too many possibilites to stay stuck with what may better not be..chaitu Homepage 07.25.06 - 4:56 am #

Love, I woudn't know much about that.Vain love, still less.scdoshi Homepage 07.25.06 - 1:52 pm #

Grin. well put.the woman Homepage 07.26.06 - 3:30 am #

Chiatu:Well put. I'l fwd the advice ASAP. Scdoshi:Consider urself lucky then Woman:U understand. I knw.Blackempress 07.28.06 - 4:19 am #

Hey miss... I guess that temporary warmyh part was pretty good though..eve if the other things are bad....Im an optimist..lolHey 08.05.06 - 5:06 pm #

Hey:U sure are! Infact that was something good. Blackempress 08.07.06 - 4:30 am #

Page from My Diary

2006-08-14T00:21:00.000-07:00

I like this one. Well, i guess it's a part and parcel of life. Some phase everyone go through at some point of time. We just have to take things at our stride? the woman Homepage 07.15.06 - 9:09 am #

I get nostalgic very very easily... I don't like to leave anything behind.But I've realized that that's not very good, And there is not enough place to carry everything with you, and you have to let go of old stuff, in order for change to happen, for new stuff to come in.And yet, now when I've realized this, it makes me even more gloomy and I regret realizing it... ignorance was bliss...scdoshi Homepage 07.15.06 - 3:43 pm #

The woman:Nicely Said lady. Sure need to. Scdoshi:I completely agree. Its just te way life teaches us to move on. mY story was like urs...I just learnt wat time was demandin of me. I had to learn the lessons. Its with all of us, I suppose. dont worry, when better stuff walks in...U're happy that the old left. Keep smiling.Blackempress 07.16.06 - 4:31 am #

victory is transient though...u win some for the time being.. u lose them all. Chaitu - going through that pessimistic phasechaitu Homepage 07.16.06 - 2:13 pm #

Chaitu:Hey! Thats pretty true...kindda like everything fades away. Cheer up!Blackempress 07.17.06 - 2:39 am #

Erm... try not to expect too much out of life. One may not lose or win anything then. =)man Homepage 07.19.06 - 11:01 am #

Sorry, typo on my new url.man Homepage 07.19.06 - 11:03 am #

Man:I already read ur last post. Thats a good thought but i guess we do want something or the other from life. But yes, letting go & acceptin the new does good. thanks.Blackempress 07.21.06 - 1:49 am #

Hi! Blackempress,how have u been.. it's been a loooong time. but i've not yet become that thing of past.. i m still here, whether you like it or not... new things, events n people are bound to come in ur life, and in order to make place for them... u loose some from ur past. though u may not want to let go all of ur past. some things remain in entirity, some things only in thoughts, and some things are totally erased from your life. I know it's hard. hvn't we all experienced the pain when something/someone, who we thought was going to be with us all life long, left us midway. it's painful n sometimes it lacks reason as well... but then there is hope in arrival of "new", i guess thats what keeps us going and if you are really lucky.. ur past will turn into future and come back to you AmitKen Homepage 07.21.06 - 3:21 am #

Ever looked at your Messenger contact list? I call it the Graveyard of relationships!Alex Homepage 07.22.06 - 5:09 am #

maybe we all are just ships floating on a huge ocean that meet and pass and never meet again?cocaine jesus Homepage 07.23.06 - 9:03 am #

Amit:Hey bud..Its great having u around. I totally agree with u. I hope the past always transforms into a brighter future for all of us . ThanksAlex:Hehe..never thought about it..but then thinkin bout it when U said so...true I dont even knw quater of the list anymore!Cocaine Jesus:Good one. Saddening when u have thoughts of losing someone u'd like to hold onto. Thanks.Blackempress 07.23.06 - 5:28 pm #

In search of the spiritual Road

2006-08-14T00:16:00.001-07:00

"You would hear many talk out philosophies that sound impressive due to the deep meaning"Is not your lengthy diatribe here just another one of those talks? Haha...And I quite like 'Scrubs'... "If we cant find time to visit our temples or mosques we can surely find time to follow the right path by treating our fellow beings with Kindness."Why do you think we need to go to places of worship at all? After all, we go there just to find peace for ourselves, and that doesn't help other people (it's rather selfish, in a way, but that's a topic for another time). I think just treating our fellow beings with kindness should be enough.scdoshi Homepage 07.10.06 - 1:11 pm #

Scdoshi:Whoa! Interesting comment! I thought mine was an opinion??!I can say no more. Peace Blackempress 07.10.06 - 8:09 pm #

i have no time for churches but understand and appreciate why some people do. personally i'd rather go direct.i have no formal relgion to cling to but have a spirituality that gives me a purpose.neat post BE. i like your opinion and the statement you make.cocaine jesus Homepage 07.11.06 - 5:28 am #

Well, I was just trying to point out that when we are spewing out philosophy in large doses, we don't realise it at the time.But I have no problems with that. (I tend to do that a lot, according to my sister.)scdoshi Homepage 07.11.06 - 5:45 am #

Its amazing - how our existence and our identity seem to be defined by our hatred. Our own self esteem is not judged by our own abilities but rather by the disabilities and shortcomings of others. "I am taller...better...fairer...richer..."And I guess the same applies to religion too...People barely know the meanin of the religion they follow but can list out the shortcomings of the rest. Like you say - life would be so much better if we would just mind our business...but perhaps thats wishful thinkinAlex Homepage 07.11.06 - 7:53 am #

hehe... hehe.. (LOL ...for some)chaitu Homepage 07.13.06 - 1:30 am #

touching!Om Homepage 07.13.06 - 2:53 am #

Cocaine Jesus:I think for ppl like u its obvious that they have spirituality. I dont think its the most important thing to b in church but follow the teachings in our daily lives. Thanks.scdoshiHey I didnt mind that. I was actually laughing. ThanksAlex:I really like the way u described it. I learnt much more from that. thanks.Om:I knw u have many deep thoughts. Thanks for visiting. Blackempress 07.13.06 - 5:14 am #

Chaitu:NO prob. we all have different opinions.Blackempress 07.13.06 - 5:16 am #

its not about opinions really... but what u do with the opinions that matters...chaitu Homepage 07.14.06 - 2:16 am #

"I've seen people make Gods out of the dead. I've seen people worshipping tombs & fire. I've heard people talking to te devil. I've seen millions march into the rooms of the fortunetellers. If I prophesise something today & tomorrow It comes true, they'll make me a saint." - Precisely. I've seen em too. To put it bluntly, I find em way stupid. Views might differ. Good post!the woman Homepage 07.15.06 - 9:06 am #

I always look up upon many people ard me bcos their knowledge, wisdom n analytical mind are much stronger than mine. Empress, u too.I've only a statement to make - learning more about a religion makes a person wiser. Gradually, one will understand that it's actually not the religion, but the path laid by that 'person' for us to learn and walk all by ourselves.man Homepage 07.19.06 - 11:18 am #

That was a nice post miss.Your ideas are highly supported by reflexion, work of thought that most people prefer to leave aside...good work!Hey 08.05.06 - 5:02 pm #

In search of the spiritual Road

2006-08-14T00:16:00.000-07:00

The magical rose

2006-08-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Unrequited Love

2006-08-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

Oh, that's dark,... Just wandering about, got your link from Alex's Blog.. scdoshi Homepage 05.27.06 - 3:33 pm #

scdoshi : welcome buddy! Well..Im quite fond of Alex too Will pay u a visit! Blackempress 05.28.06 - 6:35 am #

I can only be a bystander here...nice words..but like always your world and your experiences always seem so distant to me. Alex Homepage 05.28.06 - 8:45 am #

Hmm now why am I feeling so "on top of the world"? Alex Homepage 05.28.06 - 8:47 am #
Hmm, if only I had answers for you... Well put. I love these lines... "Die, I say. Die, I pray. Die, there's nothing worthy left today." the woman 05.28.06 - 10:39 pm #

ALex: Its great that u cant relate. . . yet you appreciate so sincerely. Thanks. Hope u stay on top of te world too. Might make others happy to c u there...I wasnt talkin bout enemies! The woman: I guess te best words come from the heart. thank u. Blackempress 05.29.06 - 1:03 am #
Dear Blackempress, You are back, with the words that touch deep inside, and reignite the feelings which were made to suppress... Die, I say... AmitKen Homepage 05.30.06 - 7:44 am #
Amit: U knw its hard to stay away esp with ppl like u. Suppress? It didnt occur to me that way...yes, it is. Those unspoken words of torment. Thanks Blackempress 06.01.06 - 3:37 am #
kewl blog be Homepage 06.02.06 - 6:11 pm #

be: thanks Blackempress 06.03.06 - 12:01 am #

good to see you commenting on my site again and even better to see you writing on a regular basis again. cocaine jesus Homepage 06.06.06 - 4:14 am #

Cocaine Jesus: I am so glad to see u too. Its just the scedule tht doesnt allow much free time. I'll b around. tc Blackempress 06.06.06 - 5:15 am #

fantabulous.. Phi Homepage 06.11.06 - 12:40 pm #

Helloooo!! anybody ? AmitKen Homepage 06.12.06 - 12:51 am #

Empress....day before yesterday only thought of ya..its been a long time I heard from you Hope you doing good!! Why did bitterness come walking in while Love still occupied the place? I'm going thru the bitterness phase right now....but I cant hate that person too..coz I was in love with her once...you just cant hate people u were once in love with...atleast thts not me Z000nie Homepage 06.12.06 - 1:11 am #

Blackempress to Zoonie: Its so pleasant to see u. I suppose thats the way we are wired. It happens that way doesnt it. we want those feelings to go but they dont. its just the anger that keeps eating at our core. Hope u get out of it. U deserve a Grrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeat gal because ur a grr...ate...guy. Thanks for droppin by. Anonymous 06.13.06 - 6:52 am #

AMit: Hi. IM WORKIN..(plannin is part of the work.) on my next post. i had an idea..then it slipped. ( yea, then it fell into the water & dissolved! lol ) :D Phi thanks. come soon. BLackempress 06.13.06 - 6:54 am #

Wake up and see the light around... wake up and enjoy the sunshine. Love is but an emotion, just like bitterness, and emotions are anything but longlived. Life is not worth this fallacy, too much bright sunshine has gone unsapped to the ground to dry up those tears... wake up and smell the flowers, that was but one rose. there's a graden out there, more fragrant, more radiant Chaitu Homepage 06.14.06 - 3:54 am #

Chaitu: I really like that comment. Yes, I believe that there is life after all that happens. Will definitely smell the flowers now. THanks. Blackempress 06.14.06 - 10:45 am #

Well, you sure don't post much, do you.. Looking forward to more darkness from you. scdoshi Homepage 06.24.06 - 2:07 pm #

Exactly one month...where art thou Empress ?? Z000nie Homepage 06.28.06 - 3:01 am #

Where art thou? Alex Homepage 07.06.06 - 5:11 am #

Scdoshi: Lol...Alrighty Just a busy schedule buddy! Zoonie: I'l pay a trip at ur door. Gonna update tis place soon. Alex: Sorry..u knw the old complaint. Will b updatin in a day or 2 hopefully. Blackempress 07.07.06 - 7:11 am #

Its contagious it seems...the blog dormancy syndrom
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Alex: U put that so perfectly. Lets try spreadin te updating germ...hehehe...lets go Tag! Blackempress 07.10.06 - 2:55 am #

blinded & forgotten

2006-07-15T03:10:00.000-07:00

it left me feeling numb....AmitKen Homepage 02.08.06 - 11:12 pm #

hmm..time for some old movies and pop corn Clark Gable, Ingrid Bergman, Casablanca, Humphrey Bogart, Vivien Leigh, Gone with the WindTake caredeath Homepage 02.08.06 - 11:33 pm #

Amitken:Hmm...numbness is a feeling, isnt it?Death:Nothin can b better. Blackempress 02.09.06 - 3:49 am #

You always leave me with some strange feeling afta I raed ur posts....Z000nie Homepage 02.09.06 - 4:48 am #

Well written...vanathi Homepage 02.09.06 - 8:01 am #

you can get pretty nasty at times...try to look it up... u might have been an amazon in days gone by ????chaituchaitu Homepage 02.10.06 - 4:57 am #

Zoonie:Well....wat can I say???! Chaitu>Thats a thought..Amazon? CoolBlackempress 02.10.06 - 8:10 am #

Vanathi:Warm welcome. Thanks. Chcked oout ur blog..Really nice. Blackempress 02.10.06 - 8:15 am #

wooo... tension & hostility. was visualising a surgery done to an enemy...man Homepage 02.12.06 - 3:09 am #

Hmph! SOunds fun MAN! Nothin like skin deep damage. ThanksBlackempress 02.12.06 - 5:28 am #

1st time ti ur blog and I find it cool. Especially the lines of strange feelings...SUMATHI Homepage 02.14.06 - 1:14 am #

Perfect lover

2006-07-15T02:58:00.000-07:00

I'm the first person to comment here..Woo...hooo!!you just made ma day Empress [:D]Z000nie Homepage 02.19.06 - 6:56 am #

My man better have faith in all he is & what he wants or has.Nice....I liked this point about ur perfect lover..Eccentricity requires firmness or its an open oppurtunity for the mockers.I think these 2 can be called as typical Empress points...coz I read so many posts about this tag...no one came with these 2 points...Practical means someone who has a good sense of all matters including finances, people & relationships.Awesome..Have seen guys who give all those big-empty dreams...Buggers of no 1 category :X
Since I am a better listener than talker so he should be talkative. Met very few guys who are talkative...I think that is too much to ask for, wouldn't you agree?A lot....I wish you good luck....think u'll have to compromise on few things for sure .anyone matching the above requirements..contact me ASAP.If not for that intelligent and smartness point...I was about to leave ma cell no. in reply to your "contact me ASAP"I lost the chance empress...I lost the chance Btw, I aready took this tag....you can read it here...Hunt for perfect lover has startedTake care and enjoy!!Z000nie Homepage 02.19.06 - 7:02 am #

That is quite the tall order Empress, but I have little room to talk. I don't even match HALF of what you listed. But hey, nothing wrong with wanting a prince...Finding the perfect man is like finding the perfect wine, a lot of different bottles to go through and after you get through 4 or 5 you find yourself feeling tired and with a hangover.Cruel Angel Homepage 02.19.06 - 8:53 pm #

ahem.... * Contacting *** Contacting **:pAmitKen Homepage 02.20.06 - 4:45 am #

Zoonie:U left too soon without even trying Oh well better luck next time. Nice dissection for the comments. I'll keep ur words in mind when I start searching. Thanks. Btw I Will leave the comment on ur blog bout ur turn.. but incase..it was good. Very original & the humor part was hilarious. All the best to all the soul-mate hunters. (that includes us )Cruel AngelI never really thought bout this thing as the wine. Its totally true. Now I hope I take time to taste the wines & then decide the worth. Hmm..is that really possible?Might end up losing oneself in the testing experience so at the actual moment, be at the start. Good one. AmitkenHmm...well the signals seem to b unsteady :PBetter luck next time! :PBlackempress 02.20.06 - 9:13 am #

Bonne chance for your quest Om Homepage 02.20.06 - 4:14 pm #

Om:Merci Blackempress 02.21.06 - 2:19 am #

lol.. btw, looks like there is some problem with your reciever, better luck next time... :o)AmitKen Homepage 02.21.06 - 5:16 am #

Isit okay if it's a SHE? :Pthe woman Homepage 02.21.06 - 8:13 am #

Amitken:Technical genius arent u The woman:NOOOOOOOOO! :PBlackempress 02.22.06 - 6:27 am #

U left too soon without even tryingCan I reapply if you are still hunting for the perfect lover??Z000nie Homepage 02.22.06 - 11:41 am #

Zoonie:U leave me speechless! I'll inform u first hand when the application season reopens Blackempress 02.23.06 - 2:45 am #

There are two kinds of men in this world. First, there are those who give up too early, and then there are the ones who die fighting. You seek the second kind and unfortunately these are things that dont last too long. I have no doubt you will find the perfect man.. bcos perfection is but a matter of perception. But things of such texture are but short lived and scarce.So best of luck in your quest - for you seek the rare and prized and you are in for some competition if its not already taken... well... much like me... peace,chaituif u think its too deep... bother not.. its not really as deep as it sounds,,,. i just got carried away.. chaitu Homepage 02.23.06 - 4:07 am #

Chaitu:Well thanks for sharin ur precious knowledge. I'll keep that in mind as I wait. U knw when the rite one comes along..he's the rite one...no1 cares whether he fits evn half the description!But Zoonie & Amitken are those "prized" Ppl ..arent u guys?So there's hope for us all. PeaceBlackempress 02.23.06 - 9:38 am #

very nice....your efervescent soul illuminates the world my dear...and i'm sure he will find the light....xomitz 02.23.06 - 11:24 am #

Thank you...thank you..Hum intezaaar karenge...tera kayamat tak...Khuda kare ki kayamat ho...aur application repoen ho jaayeZ000nie Homepage 02.23.06 - 11:45 pm #

well, thank you for tagging me. here is my response....1. Male politico's. Time to let women have a go. Be less ego and bravado and more common sense. Exceptions to the rule are the queen and margaret thatcher!2.Racism. Mind you if we got rid of that particular bias we would need another something for mankind to hate.3. Tesco. Big UK supermarket. More people gather there than at a Manchester United or Real Madrid football game!4.Organised religion. Bring on the Taoists and the Confuscians!!!!5.Baby poo. You know the black stuff that is treacle tacky and smells like dead er...well..er...dead rats.6.Bareback horse riders. Stop being so damn flash!!!7.Parents who dodge the complicated question with a dumb answer. When I was 10 I asked my mother what a 'jamrag' was. She, a very disciplined salvationist lead me by my wrist to her bedroom and showed me one. In those days they had loop bits that you hooked onto some kinda belt. FRom that day forward until god knows when I thought a 'jamrag' was a mask!!!!8. American's who tell me that they can speak english as well as wot i does!!!!!cocaine jesus Homepage 02.24.06 - 9:13 am #

Zoonie:Smart reply! U win! If there was a list, I bet u Would b in the top portion of it Cocaine Jesus:Umm, complicated. Thanks anyhow. Blackempress 02.25.06 - 6:05 am #

*** But Zoonie & Amitken are those "prized" Ppl ah! how in the world can i miss that. Thanks Blackempress u r such a sweetheart... it seems u've positioned antenna in right direction and signals are getting stronger :pAmitKen Homepage 03.01.06 - 7:16 am #

Crap! I still haven't done this. When I see myself I'll remind me.sirbarrett Homepage 03.08.06 - 9:22 pm #

Unrequited Love

2006-06-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

Oh, that's dark,...Just wandering about, got your link from Alex's Blog..scdoshi Homepage 05.27.06 - 3:33 pm #

scdoshi :welcome buddy!Well..Im quite fond of Alex too Will pay u a visit!Blackempress 05.28.06 - 6:35 am #

I can only be a bystander here...nice words..but like always your world and your experiences always seem so distant to me.Alex Homepage 05.28.06 - 8:45 am #

Hmm now why am I feeling so "on top of the world"? Alex Homepage 05.28.06 - 8:47 am #

Hmm, if only I had answers for you... Well put. I love these lines..."Die, I say. Die, I pray. Die, there's nothing worthy left today."the woman 05.28.06 - 10:39 pm #

ALex:Its great that u cant relate. . . yet you appreciate so sincerely. Thanks. Hope u stay on top of te world too. Might make others happy to c u there...I wasnt talkin bout enemies! The woman:I guess te best words come from the heart. thank u.Blackempress 05.29.06 - 1:03 am #

Dear Blackempress,You are back, with the words that touch deep inside, and reignite the feelings which were made to suppress...Die, I say...AmitKen Homepage 05.30.06 - 7:44 am #

Amit:U knw its hard to stay away esp with ppl like u. Suppress? It didnt occur to me that way...yes, it is. Those unspoken words of torment. ThanksBlackempress 06.01.06 - 3:37 am #

kewl blogbe Homepage 06.02.06 - 6:11 pm #

be:thanksBlackempress 06.03.06 - 12:01 am #

good to see you commenting on my site again and even better to see you writing on a regular basis again.cocaine jesus Homepage 06.06.06 - 4:14 am #

Cocaine Jesus:I am so glad to see u too. Its just the scedule tht doesnt allow much free time. I'll b around. tcBlackempress 06.06.06 - 5:15 am #

fantabulous..Phi Homepage 06.11.06 - 12:40 pm #

Helloooo!!anybody ?AmitKen Homepage 06.12.06 - 12:51 am #

Empress....day before yesterday only thought of ya..its been a long time I heard from you Hope you doing good!!Why did bitterness come walking in while Love still occupied the place?I'm going thru the bitterness phase right now....but I cant hate that person too..coz I was in love with her once...you just cant hate people u were once in love with...atleast thts not me Z000nie Homepage 06.12.06 - 1:11 am #

Blackempress to Zoonie:Its so pleasant to see u. I suppose thats the way we are wired. It happens that way doesnt it. we want those feelings to go but they dont. its just the anger that keeps eating at our core. Hope u get out of it. U deserve a Grrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeat gal because ur a grr...ate...guy. Thanks for droppin by.Anonymous 06.13.06 - 6:52 am #

AMit:Hi. IM WORKIN..(plannin is part of the work.) on my next post. i had an idea..then it slipped. ( yea, then it fell into the water & dissolved! lol ):DPhithanks. come soon.BLackempress 06.13.06 - 6:54 am #

Wake up and see the light around... wake up and enjoy the sunshine.Love is but an emotion, just like bitterness, and emotions are anything but longlived. Life is not worth this fallacy, too much bright sunshine has gone unsapped to the ground to dry up those tears...wake up and smell the flowers, that was but one rose. there's a graden out there, more fragrant, more radiantChaitu Homepage 06.14.06 - 3:54 am #

Chaitu:I really like that comment. Yes, I believe that there is life after all that happens. Will definitely smell the flowers now. THanks.Blackempress 06.14.06 - 10:45 am #

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Witnessing a Miracle

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A miracle it is. It sounded as if you experienced it yourself lady. It sounded that good. More to come, yes?the woman Homepage 05.11.06 - 11:19 am #

Oh, and I'm in love with the picture itself. Well captured shot.the woman Homepage 05.11.06 - 11:20 am #

firstly, welcome back. good to 'see' you agin.babies?birth?as a very average bloke i still recall the 'miracle' of watching my children being born. totally in awe of the unbelivable stress and pain that my wife went through which, for me, elevated women far and above godhood.it was a truly incredible moment in my life.great pic too!cocaine jesus Homepage 05.11.06 - 12:01 pm #

Great experience but I wonder if I envy you! All that blood and ....would surely make me go woozy!That kid looks reall cute!Alex Homepage 05.12.06 - 3:24 am #

heyyyyy!! it's so good to see you back and a wonderful post... is it the picture of same baby? keep blogging, ur presence was missed.AmitKen Homepage 05.14.06 - 9:13 am #

The woman:Love ur compliments! Defiinitely add a glow everytime! More? SURE!Cocaine Jesus:Thanks. i kindda missed myself too! Just teasing u. Wow! I bet it would have moved u sooo much..esp seeing someone else go thru it ..then nothing in te world is better than ur own kids, rite? Glad that u witnessed the miracle & shared it with us. Thank u. Alex:Well I do agree that it the bad part but trust me at the end the excitement /relief /joy is so much that its ...unbeliveable. When ur kiddies come around ..wait up for em 'there', ok? It might remind u of me. Good to hear from uAmitken:Amit dearest. I am so glad to BE back! Yes! Yes! The pic is of te same baby barely 5 mins later. i wanted to take it with the cheesy stuff on him but the nurse didnt move.! DUH! Thanks I missed u too.Blackempress 05.15.06 - 4:45 pm #

i agree completely with the woman. it sounded like a first hand account.mitz 05.18.06 - 3:24 pm #

Mitzee:Nice to see u after so long. Missed u gal.Blackempress 05.19.06 - 3:51 pm #

hmmm...chaitu Homepage 05.20.06 - 8:27 am #

The doctor's getting busy.. i presumechaitu Homepage 05.23.06 - 9:48 am #

Miracle...nothing else and that pic at the end of the post was real cute one Empress...Z000nie Homepage 05.24.06 - 8:50 am #

hellooooow !! Any body there?AmitKen Homepage 05.25.06 - 5:15 am #

it distresses me that babies get smacked when theyre born...such a horrible welcome to the world , violence... when my children were born they were placed in my arms and came gently into the world through my loving caresses...still...glad to hear you had such an uplifting experience! Birth is amazing...all the best...jade Homepage 05.27.06 - 7:52 am #

Chaitu:yea..U cant imagine the hrs! Its really tough. Thanks. Do visit soon. Zoonie:The babe was adorable. Thank u. New post up!Jade:I realy liked that comment. So out of the blue!!! I feel for the way they're held like chickens out of the labor! thanks. do come again.Blackempress 05.27.06 - 8:09 am #

AMITI am BACK!Miss youWill make a trip shortly , honestt...Gotta run rite now!Blackempress 05.27.06 - 8:11 am #

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Good things always have to come to an end....Glass & Stand does not really matter. No matter how rich you are, you cant buy death...every soul is destined t oleave the body afta some time.
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eveyone have their own destinys to reach or fullfill, the rose had its own...it was destined to fade
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The magic din't last too long. Did it?

The rose would have faded anyways. You added a bit more magic in its life. And made it look more beautiful while it lived its worth.

So, there will be more roses.. and hope the glass will always be as well.. to bring more beauty to what was so close to perfection. Took it one step further. Din't it?
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The rose is a Potemkin village.
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The rose was removed and a new rose stood in it's place. One that would, in time, wilt and be replaced by yet another. Each rose is circulated through the glass, thus keeping the "most special thing" alive. Such is the nature of tradition.

"Though you may die, the legacy, carried by those who survive you, will live forever and so you will live forever."
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rose might lose its beauty, but its fragrance will keep lingering. that's the real thing...
AmitKen | Homepage | 03.20.06 - 9:44 am | #

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if you love something so much why put it into the glass case in the first place? beautiful tale so well told.
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 03.20.06 - 11:34 am | #

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Please replace it with a new rose. Its painful to watch the beauty/genius, which was once admired by all, in a poor state.
Om | Homepage | 03.24.06 - 11:15 pm | #

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hey!!! where are you? long time....
AmitKen | Homepage | 03.25.06 - 1:47 pm | #

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Where art thou??

Z000nie | Homepage | 03.28.06 - 9:49 am | #

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Zoonie:
Interestin comment. I like it

Shooting Star:
Yes, the Ultimate Fate of everythign. THanks

Chaitu:
U sure did! I suppose thats wat We call "progress".

Sirbarret:
Im sure there was depth to that, but myself dont knw bout that "village"
Tell me sometime...would love to knw.

Cruel Angel:
Ur comment justifies the fact that one entity makes little difference to the masses. I agree.
Suppose that rose is a person....would u still say the same?

Amitken:
Such are memories! Lovely

Cocaine Jesus:
To share something u consider special with the world. Good question...its making me think! Why would U!

Om:
There will definitely be new roses..but its just that the one that faded would never return.
Glad we all love beauty enuff to want to preserve it.
blackempress | Homepage | 04.01.06 - 10:35 am | #

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great to see u back waiting for ur next post ...
AmitKen | Homepage | 04.01.06 - 1:30 pm | #

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That last line really got me thinking...lovely piece of writing...as always

Alex | Homepage | 04.04.06 - 12:57 am | #

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the rose will survive either in new renewed life or in a better stronger state.............
mitzzee | Homepage | 04.04.06 - 12:44 pm | #

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wake up. Its time.
chaitu | Homepage | 04.13.06 - 9:11 pm | #

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Nice writing...Philosophy...
Ty | 04.16.06 - 6:58 am | #

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hey! blackempress,

howz u? loooong time no see...
hope u r doing well.. come back soon
tk care..
AmitKen | Homepage | 04.20.06 - 12:33 am | #

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where are you girl? time to come back and start blogging again!
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 04.25.06 - 10:25 am | #

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Empress,

Thank you.

"May the winds blow fair at your back."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.26.06 - 11:30 pm | #

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Amitken:

Its good to have u around 2. Gonna try updating tis place asap.
Just a hectic schedule keeping me occupied. Hope all's well at ur end.

Alex:
Thank You. Been a while last heard from u. It's a pleasure seeing u again. J

Mitzee:

Wonderful to have u drop by! I love ur optimism.

Chaitu:
B back shortly. J

A note to all:
It was interesting to hear the different views I least expected.
I really learn a lot from u. Thanks for all ur contributions.
blackempress | Homepage | 04.29.06 - 8:28 am | #

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Lady, we are waiting :P
the woman | Homepage | 04.29.06 - 8:30 am | #

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AmitKen | Homepage | 04.30.06 - 4:02 pm | #

Stories from the ward

2006-02-10T20:49:00.000-08:00

yeah they do
death | Homepage | 01.08.06 - 6:44 am | #

Haha... that was funny. Reminds me of my granny. She's one helluva drama mama and loves hospital stays... she makes these trips at least once a week till the doctors there told the nurses not to admit her anymore! Hah, she's one woman I know who enjoys falling ill and getting bedridden. I'm dead serious.. so don't you laugh. Heh, even I can't help laughing at the thought of her. Lol.

Ps : More please?
the woman | Homepage | 01.08.06 - 8:20 am | #

oh dear....i could NOT do your job...God bless people like you! it was kinda funny tho....lol :P
mitz | Homepage | 01.08.06 - 11:16 am | #

death:
Gee..we're all experenced

the woman:
THanks for giving us a real life example to go with the other story
Lv ya

Mitz:
Its a tough job but it has its charm nice having u
Blackempress | 01.09.06 - 12:48 am | #

@chest examination: OUCH! :-P
@paralysed patient: Nasty female for sure! But its quite pitiful some people have to resort to such means for attention...

It's really a nice idea to share someting about your professional life coz in your field you meet so many different people; you'd definitely have so much to share... Looking forward to more similar posts...
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 01.09.06 - 7:08 am | #

this so resonates with me as my eldest daughter is a trainer cardiac physiologist and she was telling me about how these overweight women sometimes come in hot and heavy and sweating with nerves. to try and prevent themselves from perspiring overly, they powder underneath their breasts. fair enough. only trouble is when my daughter has to lift their breasts up to place the pads on them to check their hearts there is this disgusting line of 'paste'.
YUK!!

more posts like this please!
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 01.09.06 - 10:30 am | #

Ouzymandiaz:
Yes that was OUCH!
I feel embarrased telling someone that :-0
Thanks I needed the encouragement.

Cocaine Jesus:
OOK! That does sound yucky!
Thank u for te encouragement. I needed that. Wil b back with more spicy stories
Blackempress | 01.09.06 - 1:29 pm | #

Doctor Doctor...

Give me the news... i 've got a bad case of .. hehe.

Couldn' t resist it. Happy killing.

Me
chaitu | Homepage | 01.10.06 - 2:44 am | #

Chaitu:

Cute! Lucky I have good supporters in every cause
Blackempress | 01.11.06 - 3:00 am | #

Alot of patients just fake for seeking attention & these kind of stories are not uncommon.
I remember when I Was in 8th std and hospitalised for malaria, I used to make up stories coz the female doc who used to come in the mornign for check up really cute and I wanted her to stay back near ma bed for a while

*blush*
Z000nie | Homepage | 01.11.06 - 10:30 pm | #

ur work place will b full of stories it seems .. nice ..
AmitKen | Homepage | 01.12.06 - 2:06 pm | #

hmm..so wassup?
death | Homepage | 01.13.06 - 4:29 am | #

Zoonie:

Aww sweet! Shuush!
Ur secret's safe with us

Amitken:
As long its something ppl like ...its good for both. dont u think so?

Daeth:

WEll! Good question. My beloved net somehow wasn t in the social mood for a few days.

Blackempress | 01.15.06 - 4:26 pm | #

oh! yes. I agree.

btw.. when is the next story coming up?
AmitKen | Homepage | 01.16.06 - 7:14 am | #

when do we see the princess writing again [:D]
death | Homepage | 01.19.06 - 3:04 am | #

sometime soOOooon... ? []
death | Homepage | 01.19.06 - 3:05 am | #

hey Dear!

how r u doing? ur blog presence is missed
AmitKen | Homepage | 01.22.06 - 3:12 am | #

Lol. Scrubs in the making. It's 0358 hr, and I have to stifle a laugh.
The Prophetess | Homepage | 01.22.06 - 6:00 pm | #

Death:

Thanks for the visits. I do miss writitn too. Its a sad story that i somehow managed to wreck my mouse & am finally learning to do things the hard way with the keyborad.
B back soon.

Amitken:

Gee thanks buddy. As mentioned to death I have been having tech probs lately ( i hope that covers up for my inefficiency of work too :P)
B in office soon.

The Prohetess:

thanks for droppin by. Your presence is honorable.
Blackempress | 01.23.06 - 7:58 am | #

The ever "after" story

2006-02-10T20:45:00.000-08:00

She never said that she would, curse, cry and scream and lie
She never said that maybe, someday she'd say goodbye
death | Homepage | 01.24.06 - 9:43 pm | #

"So create your own 'happy ever afters'...afterall a dream is a wish of the heart & no one said dreams can't come true."

I completely agree with you... No offence meant, and might be slightly deviating from the topic... These days, in India (not sure about women outside India), women have started carrying men in their kitty while still in search of their "Knight in Shining Armour". If they come across someone who sweeps her off her feet, she'd keep him in her kitty and then get back to searching for someone better... Nobody's perfect. And we just need to realize that. Instead of hoping for something better to happen to us, we should try and make, like you right mentioned, "our own happy ever afters..."
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 01.25.06 - 1:47 am | #

boy does the final paragraph sum all of evertything you were saying here. so neatly encapsculated. relationships, of whatever kind, are the damndest things to maintain. and you are right, nobody is perfect. trouble is, and this is maybe a part of the problem, too many people in relationships think that they are faultlless and by implication, perfect.
highly intelligent and witty writting. a great way to spend an afternoon reading this when i should be working!!
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 01.25.06 - 11:45 am | #

Although somewhat disheartening, I think you're right. But it's these hopes (however false they may be) that get us through rough times (kinda like religion). But ultimately, you're right, men and women have to face the fact that reality isn't a fairy-tale for most people. You've gotta make it that way.

"Heaven helps the man who helps himself."

PS. It's good to hear from you again.
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 01.26.06 - 12:13 am | #

Death:

Thanks for the emphasis on the words. They make the tale stand out in the correct proportion.

Ouzymandiaz:

I really agree that the concept of woman power has started going into the wrong proportion. I suppose its not only India but even many other places, which i supoose stems from te fact that women r more insecure & use the attention of many men to convince themselves of the beauty etc.
The ideology of women ruling seems to fuel the ego (false beliefs)

Thanks for bringin up the subject. Nothin said here is ever irrelevant. I love lateral thoughts.

Cocaine Jesus

Very well worded. I always feel like ur comments seem to explain my concepts in finer meanings & words.

Thanks for taking out the time to read N comment. Good luck with the workl.

Cruel Angel

Its really good to hear from u too.

I agree thats its disheartening. Look around closely & u will see that almost every 2nd person is trying to find that "promised romance' that media seems to be spreading in every programme.
Things like these fairytales created ideals earlier & now we're running like a bullet train on the same tracks, except that life isnt a cartoon out of which we can create a Palave Heaven.!!
Blackempress | 01.26.06 - 5:28 am | #

WoW! that was some perspective.

Blackempress, I think the writers of that age should have atleast written a Disclaimer in the end of the story, but i guess they had no courage to do so, leave alone to tell the truth which followed the union.
The real test of a relationship begins after the union. and there is nothing 'ever after' - everything depends on 'now' and how well we handle it.
AmitKen | Homepage | 01.27.06 - 10:16 am | #

Amitken

Thats 2 thumbs up 4 u!
The "here & now' Is all that matters & that in the retrospective can b 'forever'
Excellent thought. thank u,
Blackempress | 01.28.06 - 4:20 am | #

AmitKen | Homepage | 01.28.06 - 1:31 pm | #

Nice.

What they didn't teach us at convent school.

What would we do without those fairy tales though..
inkblot | Homepage | 01.28.06 - 9:59 pm | #

Inkblot:

HI. nice having u here.
Yes, quite a thought.
Blackempress | 01.29.06 - 3:55 pm | #

Long standing question

2006-01-07T03:07:00.000-08:00

Great Blog !
Happy New year to u!

I guess we are simply a part of the system, never supposed to know what our aim is....Religion survies on this unknown, I guess.
" Death Is Just A New Beginning"... ur other questions may take time to get answered...
routine Homepage 01.01.06 - 1:30 pm #

Well put.

As I read this, I try answering to every question posed... There's just one answer to all.

The one with a religion, doesn't ask questions for he should know his Creator and the purpose of his Creation (materialistic or not).

Ps: I like this post. I like the thoughts.
the woman Homepage 01.02.06 - 12:07 am #

Grab a copy of "RAJ YOG" by "SWAMI VIVEKANAND" and "AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A YOGI" by "PARMAHANSA YOGANANDA". Perhaps you could make better sense of things around you and in your life...
ouzymandiaz Homepage 01.02.06 - 2:08 am #

Just one simple thought: gee, I have no clue! Promise to send over the answers when I find them. Wish a great year ahead.
Heretic Homepage 01.02.06 - 2:18 am #

ROutine:
NIce to have u around.
YEs. thats a thought! Life begins here...death is a continuation.

The woman:
Lovely having ur prints here.
I guess u n I have similar thoughts in ways but this life remains without answers.

Ouzymandiaz:
Thank u. I'll take up te suggestion.

Heretic:
WElcome!
Thanks . will b waiting to hear wat u have to say.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
BLackempress 01.02.06 - 2:53 am #

well.. being curious is a good sign...if u get the answers to all your questions there wont be more to life and it will be pointless to live it.. the more questions u have the more knowledge u would wanna seek.. religon is a way of life.. and often we just study it superficially,therefore failing to get the answers we need..or religon encourages us to question and just follow it blindly.. otherwise we will just have rituals and no clear concepts... just like most of us do..
Anonymous 01.02.06 - 10:56 am #

Anonymous:
I SO AGREE THAT MOST OF US ONLY FOLLOW RITUALS.
the 1st two lines r rather interesting.-something to think about!
THANKS
BLACKEMPRESS 01.03.06 - 2:51 am #

hey there empress.. this is such an amazing post.. totally relate to it.. the angst u have penned in the post hit home.. i guess its a phase everyone has to go thru!
ahs Homepage 01.03.06 - 4:24 am #

ahs:
Yea i guess its a phase even if some dont get out of it :
Gee thanks! Its great to have u here. HOw cum u're not posting at all?
Blackempress 01.03.06 - 10:17 am #

i am not religous in the accepted sense but i am a very spiritual individual. coming to terms with the randomness of life and death is hard though. i think that living in a traditional western system must have an advrse effect as we all tend to hear of, if not believe in, the jewish/christian/muslim faiths. and of course their beliefs, whilst being very different to mine, give hope to life after this one.
it certainly isn't easy sometimes to cope in this mixed up, muddled world is it?
great black post black empress. kep 'em coming.
cocaine jesus Homepage 01.03.06 - 12:07 pm #

I guess if there is some passion to follow for the lifetime, one won't face these problems/questions.
Finding such passion might be another problem, though!
Om Homepage 01.03.06 - 11:30 pm #

Sorry I've been out so long, Empress. I did some research on existantialism a while back and found someone who did a great job answering the great question.
Dr. Viktor Frankl, WWII survivor and philosopher wrote a couple books on the meaning of life, and man's question of it. Man's Search for Meaning is a book I recommend you reading. He wrote another book that gives greater insight on the psychology of existentialism, but it get's a bit technical and isn't a good one to start out on. I suggest reading up on him.

"He who has a why to live can bear with almost any how"
Cruel Angel Homepage 01.04.06 - 12:40 am #

Cocaine Jesus:
I do salute u! Its interesting that u dont follow any of the faiths & yet knw about them. I guess it comes from those around us.
I suppose following any religion would make u take life in certain "terms". If u know wat I mean. But to live it as wat the 'essence' of life is in itself is somthing really worth finding out!
THank u.
Ur comment made me see thru the situation.

Om:
Nicely answered. I do agree. thanks

Cruel Angel:
Thumb up as always!
I will surely put these books on my list. I learnt something new. Thanks
I would love to implicate the quote. well said!
Blackempress 01.04.06 - 1:44 am #

As the wise man put it...

"Life is what happens when you are busy making plans for it"

And thats the way to look at the word 'why'

Nothing is designed. Nothing is meant to happen. Its just what happens and the inquisitive mind will try to find patterns in what happened.

Taking the reverse engineering of morpheus' words - 'What happenned happened and would not have happenned any way else"

Its the reason that we are all after. The artist sees a pattern in the design. And what you choose to see in what happenned is what makes you who you are.

If you cant make sense of what's been spoken. Ask and you shall not be ignored.

Good luck in ur quest - for thats what it is all about. - The Quest.

- Me
chaitu Homepage 01.04.06 - 3:48 am #

new post up...
ouzymandiaz Homepage 01.04.06 - 7:28 am #

spectacular post!

you never cease to amaze me with your words.

happy new year to you too! peace.
mitzzee Homepage 01.04.06 - 10:26 pm #

I talk in broad terms

hmm..so you've been able to amass this infinity within your limits, and know how far your truths go?

i am only wondering if you're somewhere chasing the wrong lie.

Interesting thoughts though. But still, my pessimism endures.

Somethings' not quite right in the way you put those words.

Something, just don't know what is..

hmmm..

Nice post, btw
death Homepage 01.05.06 - 7:09 am #

oOps, think i spoke a lil tOo much in my earlier comment. Sorriee...just read your new year post. Amazing!! Wow!! I mean Wow

You've been blessed with a rare brain:D
death Homepage 01.05.06 - 7:21 am #

Chaitu:
Thank U. Thank U. Thank U.
That was very impressive.

Mitzee:
I had full intentions of writing u a note incase u visited. I really miss u lady.
Y'd U delete the blog?
Thanks so much. I do hope U come back & leme know wats up.

Death:
I really dont mind hearing criticism. Infact it made me wonder where I was lacking!
This gal is open to all views. Thanks for taking the time to read N appreciating the post u liked. I liked the
compliment. Thanks.

Ouzymandiaz:
I tried to check..IM still gettin the same old page. lemme check again.
Cud b the cookies!
Blackempress 01.05.06 - 1:47 pm #

I ditto what Anon had to say...i mean what would do with the knowledge of the meaning of life...would it make your life any better.....perhaps some more qs...
Alex Homepage 01.06.06 - 8:14 am #

Alex:
Well true. It hasnt to do with predictibility. Its something else..when I find out wat..I'll knw wat it was. THanks.
Blackempress 01.06.06 - 10:10 am #

Alex:Well true. It hasnt to do with predictibility. Its something else..when I find out wat..I'll knw wat it was. THanks.Blackempress 01.06.06 - 10:10 am #

somebody has copied your entry almost exactly , word for word .go here:http://indianfriendfinder.com/bl.../ post_5639.html?and scroll down the page to see artful plagiarism.sumit 01.07.06 - 2:39 am #

hi empresswonderful new year to you. sori for being away for sometime. i was busy with my work n participated in a retreat lately. so.. now i'm back.I've a doubt - what's e diff b/w spiritual n religious?i strongly believe everything happens for a reason n the reason is created by one ownself. i'm sure u heard of karmic effect. gd or bad merits accumulated from lives in the past n taking place when the time ripen. after undergone this retreat, i see life is really impermanence. no matter how successful or wealthy or happy u r now, it cant be taken with you when u passed this life, except merits.enjoy every moment of work you do. be mindful n i'm sure u'll get the answers to everything when u become really aware of things.man Homepage 01.08.06 - 12:55 am #

Man:V talking bout past lives? cool.Dont know if I really believe that but as long as the anology serves t purpose.Thanks. good response. happy new yr to u too.Blackempress 01.16.06 - 3:05 am #

Tail Of 2005

2006-01-07T03:04:00.000-08:00

Amen Sista! It sounds like the year of self-preservation and actualization. You have a good head on your shoulders. It hasn't been a great year for me either, but the challenges taught me a lot and made me appreciate things more. Good observation about human relationships compared to physical ones: "simile simile gaudet." Here's to looking forward to a fresh outlook in 2006!
sirbarrett | Homepage | 12.18.05 - 5:32 pm | #

Only by reflecting on our past can we learn to better handle our future. You've learned a lot for one year. Just imagine what this knowledge will do for you in another year's time.

"I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn, and we are lead to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return..."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 12.19.05 - 12:42 am | #

Sirbarette:

That goes for the two of us Hope this yr would b better. I think that if we keep our minds & eyes open there's always chance of improvement.

Cruel Angel:

Have u found another blog? Been away so long.. which makes it more honorable to see ur visits.

Highly encouraging remark! I shall keep the last comment in mind. Somehow I tend to forget that i can do kindness plenty of times & not expect reward. perhaps it would bear fruit someday.
Blackempress | 12.19.05 - 2:44 am | #

Happy new year Blacempress.

I dont exactly recall the time when I read you first. but your writings on various occassions expressed emotions which I was going though. On numerous occasions I felf like what you wrote was meant for me. On some occasions your writings made me accept emotions which I was afraid of and was refusing to acknowldge. Call it co-incidence, but if i consider your blog to be a mirror image of your life, reading it was like i was looking in mirror myself.

Thank you for being there. You probably wont know, but your presence is valued and admired.

Wish you all the peace and love you desire from all quarters of life.

Thank You!
AmitKen | Homepage | 12.19.05 - 8:20 am | #

btw.. have you visited my new blog yet? i've moved from my blogspot blog to a new one on wordpress.

You may want to change the link in your blogroll as well. the new link is :

http://amitken.wordpress.com
AmitKen | Homepage | 12.19.05 - 8:22 am | #

A greater height reached & a stronger mind attained. I wish to have half of your mindfulness. It's difficult to surmount one's weakness, and you did it. You've accepted & transform it into another positive inner strength. Cheers.

I concur some points with you. I believe it's always near impossible to have truths around you, besides family & dearest frens. Out of ten people, I'd be very grateful to receive only one appreciation, albeit it's just for a second. With this belief, we can see who's good & bad. Time proves things.

Glad that you've found a new U & you can love yourself like nobody's biz now.
man | Homepage | 12.19.05 - 10:54 am | #

AMITKEN

i dont think any comment ever had been as hearty as this one. cool

i think i have come to terms with my self because of all the encouragement i get. my faithful visitors have really been my confidantes.

thank u for ur admiration but belive me its a very mutual bond.

Im really glad that my work made positive changes for u too.

i've been tryin to post on ur blog since so long but it never accepts my comments.

i will change te blogroll too.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

MAN:

it takes gr8 courage to accept the truths as bitter as they may b. but i prefer the temporary poison to the long standin fatal kind.
i believe if we try we can rise higher than wat we believe. the mind is a magnificient tool.
find inspiration nd from there aspiration THATS WAT I DID!

great comment. thanks
BLACKEMPRESS | 12.20.05 - 3:34 am | #

I love this post.

To many more years of blogging... Cheers!

Happy New year to you, empress.
the woman | Homepage | 12.20.05 - 10:01 pm | #

for a moment, I felt like I was reading a summary of my own experiences this year.
Some words just touch our heart. These were one(s) of them.
Om | Homepage | 12.20.05 - 10:45 pm | #

Thank You! Blackempress.

U can't comment?? do u mean on my new blog on Wordpress?? i hv not heard from anyone else facing such problem...

yes, my old blog on blogspot (amitken.blogspot.com) has that problem, it shows only 15 comments while there are 80+ comments to my last post on my now 'OLD' blog...

I am confused :-?
AmitKen | Homepage | 12.21.05 - 11:49 am | #

The woman:

I do love that. Here's to our beginning

Om:
Honored to have u here. For someone with powerful emotions like u2 say that..this is really a compliment for me.

AMitken:
Will try again/ dont know wat was wrong. I really tried many times.
Blackempress | 12.21.05 - 4:33 pm | #

having gone through what sounds like hell and high water it is refreshing to hear that you are better for it.
life has a nasty way of sneaking up and kicking you up the arse doesn't it?
HAVE A GREAT CHRISTMAS and even better NEW YEAR.
x
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 12.22.05 - 4:42 am | #

Cocaine Jesus:

Tht sure is the case! I think there are lessons to b learnt from every step in life. It's just good to knw that we are progressin
~Merry christmas & a hppy new yr~
Blackempress | 12.23.05 - 12:21 am | #

I agree with all tht u have mentioned... Happy New Year!!!
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 12.23.05 - 3:38 am | #

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/...3/s/album.3853/

Listen to very first song and thy shall know this yrs celebs theme...
Hirdu | Homepage | 12.23.05 - 10:16 pm | #

ouzymandiaz:

Happy new yr to u too!
Nice seeing u. I'm glad I have good friends to share my pain.

Hirdu:

I will. Nice seeing u after so long/ hppy new yr
Blackempress | 12.24.05 - 12:54 pm | #

Well... : )
Wiz | 12.26.05 - 8:08 pm | #

Wiz:

I was wondering wher off u disappeared.
Blackempress | 12.27.05 - 5:32 am | #

Spoke like a true cancerian. I completely agree with you on the 'like attracts like'. The suprising part is that my year went almost identical. Here wishing u a great new year!
Gautam | 12.28.05 - 1:03 am | #

I am glad for the new direction you have found in your life.

May the new year guide you ever closer to your goals and ambitions!
Alex | Homepage | 12.28.05 - 2:01 am | #

will definitely shate all tht i hav... but am on a vacation in mumbai! new post is coming up in new year... for sure...
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 12.28.05 - 4:24 am | #

Gautam:
Thanks. Nice of u to visit. DO hope u come again.

ALex:
happy new yr to u too pal.
Yes, its been an enlightening yr.

Ouzymandiaz:
Will b lookin fwd to it. Happy new yr & enjoy the upcoming events. Happy holidays/
BLackempress | 12.30.05 - 6:39 am | #

wow
death | Homepage | 01.05.06 - 7:20 am | #

somebody has copied your entry almost exactly , word for word .

go here:

http://indianfriendfinder.com/bl.../ post_5639.html?

and scroll down the page to see artful plagiarism.
sumit | 01.07.06 - 2:28 am | #

Tender Moments

2006-01-07T03:02:00.000-08:00

Empress, you have no idea how much impact this entry will have on my christmas presents this year! I will foward my lil' sister a few excepts to show her what GOOD sisters get for their OLDER siblings! Pay hommage to the older sibling who had to change their diapers!

"It's the most wonderful time of the year."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 12.11.05 - 4:13 pm | #

That's so very sweet of her.

Yea, keep smiling.
the woman | Homepage | 12.12.05 - 2:08 am | #

Cruel Angel:

Hey! that is a good idea! BUt how bout u b the great BIg bro & give her a tiny gift as well. Spread te love!

The woman:

Yes IT was & it made both of us so happy. even better, i got her to get a new moble too...so now we're both really happy!!!
BLackempress | 12.12.05 - 3:16 am | #

that is what life is all about....family, love, kindness, selfless sentiment and happiness.....or so we hope.

sweet, very sweet!
mitz | Homepage | 12.12.05 - 2:26 pm | #

Mitz:

Yea..lucky tat we have hope

I consider myself lucky in family matters.
nice hearin from u.
BLackempress | 12.13.05 - 3:07 am | #

i am an only child but with four kids of my own have an inkling of how you must have felt. there are times when i have tried to tell one of mine off for arguing with the other only for the one i am trying to defend to turn on me!
sibling love is a mystery but a joy. what a great sister you have!
cocaine jesus | Homepage | 12.13.05 - 4:15 am | #

COCAINE JESUS

I FIND THAT RATHER SWEET! I do agree that sibling love is a mysterious n beautiful thing. time n time again i turn to mine & i know i wont b turned away.
I really am lucky

ITZ NICE TO KNOW U HAVE 4 KIDS. must b a picnic at home
BLACKEMPRESS | 12.14.05 - 5:04 am | #

Oh, this was sweet. I am jealous. I wish I was close with my family, especially my sister. Never take her for granted and consider yourself blessed for such a great relationship. Nice post.
Wondering | 12.14.05 - 10:02 pm | #

we both hv sweet sisters! i've got a Creative's mp3 cum usb fm her for my bdae tis yr. and i'm really happy abt that. but we are not as outspoken as others. our feelings are normally expressed thru some acts, not in speech. It's kinda embarrassing to bear our hearts out face to face at times. conservative family i wld say...
man | Homepage | 12.15.05 - 7:09 am | #

You are def. blessed
Mandeep | 12.15.05 - 2:47 pm | #

Mandeep:

Some ppl make me realise that . thanks
Blackempress | 12.16.05 - 4:20 am | #

I also have the 7610 and in the same colour and with the wrist strap too. Yayy! lol!

You have a wonderful sister...
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 12.23.05 - 3:42 am | #

ouzymandiaz:

Yeah! THats great. i love it.
Blackempress | 12.25.05 - 11:05 am | #

If you are going to use the wrist strap often, i'd suggest you to put the wrist strap in the hook at the bottom of the cell. it makes it easier to handle while having the cell around ur wrist! :-d
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 12.28.05 - 4:22 am | #

Stolen from Osbasso

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01] I _____ Blackempress02] Blackempress is _____.03] If I were alone in a room with Blackempress, I would _____.04] I think Blackempress should _____.05] Blackempress needs _____.06] I want to _____ Blackempress07] Someday Blackempress will ___.08]Blackempress reminds me of _____.09] Without Blackempress _____.10] My memories of Blackempress are _____.11Blackempresscan be _____.12] The worst thing about Blackempress is _____.13] The best thing about Blackempress is _____.14] I am _____ with Blackempress.15] One thing I would like to know about Blackempress is _____.16] Blackempress should go and _____.17]Blackempress _____ me.

there certainly some bits i would love to fill in but as i have only just 'met' you and i don't want to get in more trouble (story of my life) i think i will pass. funny post though!xcocaine jesus Homepage 12.02.05 - 4:14 am #

1) a fan of 2) unique, mysterious n creative3) Make her try on e new clothes I’ve bought for her4) Not stop blogging5) Whitemperor, opposite attracts!6) Be a great pal with7) Have a family, n a family blog will start, n gradually her children will create better blogs as genes inherited by her n… lol!8] The Yang Warriors, strong n independent, witty n gracious. I’m a Yang too!9) Without mandy. Thanks for ur recognition. They r encouraging.10) Strong believer of herself.11) A great leader, a wonder woman and a passionate lady. 12) No pics of a real her13) She has put up a nice pic there. Very apt with her descriptn.14) Gonna stick my blogging life15) Her age..hehee.. 16) Search for a man that really loves her more than she does.17) Never leaveman Homepage 12.02.05 - 4:51 am #

1. wanna know2. living innocently3. make her smile4. smile a little more5. smile6. wink at7. smile forever8. smiling diva.9. there might be no smile10. not much11. a smiling gal12. shadow13. shadow14. hmmmm15. secret16. have snacks17. now donot smile athirdu Homepage 12.02.05 - 7:30 am #

1. I admire Blackempress2. Blackempress is mysterious3. If I were alone in a room with Black empress, I would...well, we'll just leave that to the imagination now, won't we?4. I think Blackempress should play more5. Blackempress needs something to fill the void6. I want to...again, imagination...Blackempress7. Someday Blackempress laugh8. Blackempress reminds me of myself9. Without Blackempress, who would encourage me on my blog?10. My memories of Blackempress are insightful ones11. Blackempress can be more than she thinks she can be12. The worst thing about Blackempress is unknown13. The best thing about Blackempress is her spirit14. I am...I'll let you fill that in Empress15. One thing I would like to know about Blackempress is where you put the damn remote control, I can't find it anywhere!16. Blackempress should go and treat herself17. Blackempress...you can fill out the last oneCruel Angel Homepage 12.02.05 - 11:29 am #

Michael Bolton and Metallica? Not sure how that scans... meanwhile...I don't know BlackempressShe is an enigmaAlone together we would seek to create depthI think she should bare her soulShe needs to ride the clouds above the stormI want to dance with herSomeday she will release her first CDShe reminds me of market placesWithout her I would be somewhere elseMy memoroies of her are flawedShe can be playfulThe worst is over, the best is yet to comeI am curious - black.Where is going next? She should visit me.Blackempress - your time is valuable.Roger Stevens Homepage 12.03.05 - 8:07 am #

A note to allThanks so much for taking the time. It's really honorable that you all took the time to fll that out. Its really no wonder that this blog means so much to me. The credit really goes to you all. MAn:That was sooooooooooo sweet. I am actually lost for words. Cruel Angel:Thanks. Some of that was really touching n true while some was laughable. Really liked it. Hirdu:It was note & praise worthy how u used some of the words. Thanks. Roger: U really found something innovative. Cute.Blackempress 12.04.05 - 5:12 pm #

Cocaine Jesus:Np. Its creditable that u visited. Thanks/ ..ur welcome to fill in anything u like .Blackempress 12.04.05 - 5:21 pm #

1. dislike2. ugly3. strangle her to death4. reading this!5. pills6.rape7.vanish8.little red riding hood9.life would be meaningful10. none11.sexy12. she writes nonsense13.she loves me!14. in lust15. do you lust me like i lust you?16. swim in a bathtub17. LOVES*escapes*the woman Homepage 12.04.05 - 10:43 pm #

THe woman:Wise-guy aye? Now how did u exactly come to the conclusion that blackempress loves u :P *escapes* :PBlackempress Homepage 12.05.05 - 2:16 am #

Ilike BlackempressBlackempress is too kewl blogger.If I were alone in a room with Blackempress, I would try to impress her with ma sense of humorI think Blackempress should continue her writing till eternity. I luv to read her posts all da timeBlackempress needs a hugI want to HUG n HUG BlackempressSomeday Blackempress will.....Blackempress reminds me ofno one. She is unique!!Without Blackempress its a void somewhere on the blog-worldMy memories of Blackempress are very few...nothing special to write downBlackempress can be professional writer in real life?The worst thing about Blackempress is nothing...if there is something, I'm yet to find outThe best thing about Blackempress is her way of expressing her thoughts..I can neva do thisI am impressed a lot (infact I envy her...hehehe) with BlackempressOne thing I would like to know about Blackempress is her location / real nameBlackempress should go and start writing new post soonBlackempress you RULE meZ000nie Homepage 12.05.05 - 8:10 am #

1)I admire Blackempress2)Blackempress is an enigma3)If I were alone in a room with Blackempress, I would be blushing4) I think Blackempress should keep those words flowing5)Blackepress needs ...??6) I want to delve into the mind of Blackempress7) Someday Blackempress will find what she is looking for Blackempress reminds me of ...I dont know....she is just a complete enigma9) Without Blackempress life would go on but without those little thoughts and poems that make you think so much10) My memories of Blackempress are vague11) Blackempress can be a pessimist at times 12) The worst thing about Blackempress is ..cant think of anything...13) The best thing about BE is that you could fall in love with her just like that14) *shrugs*15) her name16) Blackempress should go and buy a house in the mountains and wake to a misty morning each day...17) BE intrigues meThe Hissing Saint Homepage 12.06.05 - 2:43 am #

Zoonie :Remarkable!U stand out of the the crowd with ur easiness. I would actually love to meet u in person just for ur sense of humor. I love ppl who laugh & Me making them do that!!! Hissing Saint:I dont know if I'm lucky or unlucky not to know u in real life but one thing's for sure . Imight have fallen for u if that cud have been the case. Very true in my analysis esp as far as the writing is concerned. Thanks so much.Blackempress 12.06.05 - 3:18 am #

Thanks for visitingRoger Stevens 12.06.05 - 5:32 pm #

i did this for os too...very cool, now 4 u:01] I heart Blackempress02] Blackempress is intelligent.03] If I were alone in a room with Blackempress, I would discuss life and drink tea with her.04] I think Blackempress should write a book.05] Blackempress needs to post some pics of herself so we can see her physical beauty to match her inner beauty.06] I want to meet Blackempress07] Someday Blackempress will be truly happy.08]Blackempress reminds me of the woman.09] Without Blackempress the world would have a little less spark.10] My memories of Blackempress are all fond ones.11Blackempresscan be sweet and funny, yet serious.12] The worst thing about Blackempress is she lives so far away.13] The best thing about Blackempress is she's awesomerad.14] I am in awe with Blackempress.15] One thing I would like to know about Blackempress is why her writing sometimes has so much sorrow in it.16] Blackempress should go and travel the world.17]Blackempress links to me and I totally dig her! xomitz Homepage 12.07.05 - 1:53 pm #

Mitz:Hugs N kisses for the last comment.I want the same.Loads of answers show ur intelligence.Thanks alot. Love te compliments. Blackempress 12.09.05 - 12:09 am #

Arranged marriage

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Interesting vows. They cover most of Maslow's needs. I suppose they could accomplish a lot if they were meant in earnest.sirBarrett Homepage 11.24.05 - 11:35 pm

SirBarett:Hmm,.,,I suppose that relates to te psychology guy?! I think it would make a great deal of a dfference should it b earnest. Funny how we knw wats rite yet never give up on the wrong.BLackempress Homepage 11.25.05 - 1:56 am

Wonderfully written...esp the way in which the 2 views meld together.But really how many see it that way?The Hissing Saint Homepage 11.25.05 - 3:07 am

It was better when the idea propped up but somehow i managed to d something. Dont u think every life would fall into place if each person would see it this way? Too idealised a perception I suppose!!! sadlyBLackempress Homepage 11.25.05 - 3:42 am

very well put. love this AmitKen Homepage 11.25.05 - 4:22 am

Brilliant site. Love it.cocaine jesus Homepage 11.25.05 - 10:45 am

Amitken:I wasnt sure . thanks.
Cocaine Jesus:Thank U. I vistied urs too. Quite a piece.
Blackempress 11.26.05 - 1:42 pm

Hey!I am back with a blog.Checkout my new blog http://amitken.wordpress.com the old blog http://amitken.blogspot.com exists but is not updated.The addiction continues.. but at a new address :o) hope to catch you there.AmitKen Homepage 11.29.05 - 8:20 am

very nice words....although i feel giving up ones own birth name takes away who they really are.mitz Homepage 11.29.05 - 2:17 pm

Hmmm, and what about love marriages?the woman Homepage 11.30.05 - 12:38 am

arranged marriages or love marriages? both seem odd to me and yet, as so often is the case, they work. they also breakdown and with love marriages you can divorce and walk away. can you walk away or divorce from arranged marriages? i dunno. surely love only lasts while it lasts and marriage is just a 'man made fabrication'. as i said before cool site and great post.cocaine jesus Homepage 11.30.05 - 8:40 am

Very powerful vows. Personally I would never agree to such. A marriage is when two people sacrifice half of what they are, in the hopes that together their halves will sum up to something greater than they were before. Thats a very big risk, and the idea of arranging such a risk before two people even know each other is an even greater risk."The three most powerful words in the world are: I love you."Cruel Angel Homepage 11.30.05 - 10:37 am

AMitken:Surely will! congrats on the new site. Definitely will b as good as b4. MItz:I do agree with u there. I was keeping an eastern point of view. It's how it happens. SOmething no one questions. THe woman:I think love marriage is more romantic. An >>>>on going romance. Cocaine Jesus:Thanks for the compliments & sharing ur point of view. interesting indeed. I think both need same kind of compromise. Its just in one the expectations r too high so they fail. Cruel Angel:It's quite a pleasure that u visited. I have one word to describe ur comment:CLassic!!Blackempress 12.01.05 - 1:26 am

When I started reading I thought like there shall be some naughty twist in the last.... Very true indeed....But d u really believe, that it happens this way...I think, it is supposed to be this way, but then Marriage somehow turns out to be marriage of convienence...hirdu Homepage 12.01.05 - 3:11 am #

Hirdu:How nice to see u!NO I dont believe even a part og it happens. When people r wedded they are always thinkin in terms of the receiving part ... which ends up in self pity in the last. I wanted to add some twist but then it was a serious opening so mocking something pppl really value didnt fit. THanks .Blackempress 12.02.05 - 3:44 am

Nice post, ! But you have mentioned that you don't believe even a part of it. Then why write about it? - I don't get the point. MandeepMandeep 12.03.05 - 10:54 am #

Mandeep:Fictionous writers write because they want to believe in them & to give something to the world. Its not bc of its existence. My case is the same.Blackempress Homepage 12.05.05 - 2:20 am #

2005-12-19T16:03:00.000-08:00

Hola Amigo!

Its sooooooooooooooooooo nice to have a mail from u after wat seems like ages!

I have a lot going on in my mind. Part of which I don�t even know how to say. Honestly telling u, U actually did urself a favor by extracting urself from the situation. It was bothering u even earlier & he wasn�t doing u justice. I wouldn�t know another way myself but free sessions shud not be encouraged! ;)
U deserve someone who�ll at least note the trouble u take for the person. U�ll find someone worthy Inshallah. Hey, Leave space for somebody-don�t shut out all the doors. The worst thing about u is that U can actually live independently far more than me. So that�s SAYING SOMETHING! U know me & my love for freedom. Yes, we know u can do on ur own but don�t start in that direction, ok?
Arranged? neah! Too old fashioned! J
Everytime I think about that it makes me laugh because I remember myself. I don�t know any person I want to marry. No, Not Zeesh either! That�s not love. That�s not denial either! :P
Yaar, that was really pathetic-the elevator story. I was euphoric because of many reasons. One of the major one were the comments on the blog. As mentioned. OK, OK, I�m rationalizing! :P
See what happened was that he was ill, so I went to pay him a visit. I took a bouquet along. Got the story? :D
Careless me, didn�t bother thinking the meaning of RED ROSES. Khair went there & he came down to take me up because I wasn�t sure about the flat no. So it was us 2 in the elevator & the roses. Don�t ask the rest!
Yes, we both were stiff tensed. He was against the back wall & I was standing at the door waiting for it to open so I cud just jump off-but then U know me & my high spirits, as good as I am with covering it up. He wasn�t sure whether he shud accept even though I left them in front of his mom but then STUPID Me said �they�re not valentine flowers� so he didn�t seem too comfortable. Not like I was!! Just kept rationalizing. Hell! I wasn�t even listening to him talking when he insisted to drop me till the door down. Ahem! So�that�s the whole pathetic story. I was just romanticizing it to tease u. He never replied.

Yaar I�m seriously beginning to question my moral values. After some regular time periods I start getting too much attention from men & end up having constant guilt trips. Its not that I have emotional involvement with anyone-half of them I don�t even remember but then someone mails & I end up replying. I do that irrespective of gender but somehow I realized now that amongst all the ppl I know I think it�s a 3:1 men-women ratio. I deleted all the ppl sometime back, as u may recall but then I start getting mails from others. No one writes regularly nor do I write anything related to my life or such but still! Then I keep feeling bad. What have u got to say about it? U know most of it.

I don�t get to meet Zeesh& Am perfectly myself when everyone else is around. Haven�t talked since some time. NO, THAT IS NO LOVE STORY.

These days Nida& I keep quarrelling over Dr.Moin.J All the girls really like him. It�s a joke of course. He�s too sweet for me. I want someone I can fight with all the time.

It�s gotten cold due to the rain. Still more dinners to go. It�s so hard meeting ppl everyday & worst of it�dressin up! U know how lazy I am bout that.
Still haven�t found time to sit & start studying properly. I wonder how I manage to reply to every mail�don�t u?!!! (it�s the tempo factor, honest ;)

Me trying to solve my mysterious mind that�s been stuck on a song since a few days. The fun part is that the song doesn�t have a stable base. Its about imprisonment in Hotel California which is also meant in terms of drug addiction. Don�t want to give the analysis I can conjure.

U asleep yet?

Am too restless right now. Should be sleeping. Gonna be dozing in class. Don�t want to miss the day because of Dr. Zain taking the clinics today.

The dumb net keeps dc. There�s some prob with the lines & the guy doesn�t turn up. We�ve been whining about the net since 2 moths now. Hope dad calls the guy so we can chat. Feels like I know absolutely nothing bout the way u are there.

Tragic about Farheen. Its not fair because she cleared the paper in the 1st go. My story! Bilal? He said Dr. Tariq said he would flunk him because Bilal didn�t attend the classes but still passed the papers etc. Who knows!
I�m happy that Sabeen paired up with Yousuf & Nida. They�re both supportive. I�m too aloof & independent for her. U know me & my airs! Or should I say arrogance? Kya karon yaar been with you so getting along with normal ppl is near impossible. Not like it was easy getting hold of me earlier but still!
I don�t get time at uni to be with anyone. In fact time feels too short. The extra time I have in between classes, I�m on the net replying to ppl or �sleeping. Told u earlier that I stayed with my shadow JThat�s company enough.
Ambreen disappeared. So did everyone else. Those who didn�t, I never bothered paying any attention, hoping they would go away too. J Really don�t want to do anything with people I wasn�t too fond of in the old days either.

I�ve been typing since 30mins & I already feel bad for makin u read so much. Shud I send it in two parts? HAHA
I�m waiting for Fajr. Or is it that we�ve been disconnected too long? Hmmm�I can offer another explanation but I think I�ll let u go now.

I don�t really wonder why u stay away!! Lol
Don�t u get tired of my chatter?

Do lemme know bout ur opinion bout the above thingy.

I�ll have mercy on us both.
Write soon. Btw u never said bout wat I asked u about Dr.Moin & the not-deliberate flintiness.

Bu-bye
Tc

Tender Moments

2005-12-09T02:29:00.000-08:00

Isnt it beautiful, when someone you love, gets you the thing you've had ur eyes on since sometime, especially when you least expect to ever get it!
At the present moment I have the not-so-new yet my favourite( mark-the only Nokia set)Mobile in my hand & yet it seems like a dream. I didnt get it. I wanted to but I really didnt even think of it due to the cost. I am attracted to, as well as scared, of expensive things. Reasons Of it I'll skip.
Anyways, I always admired it from the distance but a day back my sister surprised me by giving it to me as a gift. No birthday, no graduation... nothing! She was celebrating her love for me!
I was so touched.
I was kindda ambivalent due to the attachment to the old Sony Erricson of mine(me being a fan of it). But then the thought behind the effort & especially the cost of getting a gift out of her own pocket(which I assure u is a big thing for someone on pocket money esp when its a big price!)
& then if it wasnt enough then just the fact that it was my favourite person's love made me so excited with the new piece.

IF that wasnt enough she wrote a long letter for me expressing her admiration & sentiments. To make it perfect she added a card to the whole thing. Then last but not the least she drew a big smiley That said "Keep smiling because I love you."
Absolutely adorable!

To me she is & will always b a kid no matter how old she gets. SHe's still the child of my heart.
Shy as we are, I sent her a text :

"That was the sweetest & most laughable letter I've ever gotten. Thanks :) Love u baby.
You'll always be my sweet baby sissy!"

She replied:

"Aww...you melted this ole heart of mine. THanks :)"

Both of us dont fall for just anything but when it comes to us both, there's an extra soft spot.
At times like these, I really know that I am blessed!

Thanks sis, U're the best :)

Demon

2005-12-04T23:43:00.008-08:00

Is there any other blog running under the same name of BLACKEMPRESS??

I recently came across one, and thought you stopped blogging on this one.

There was a loong silence here....hope things are fine for you empress

Take care and have a nice weekend ahead
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Zoonie:

Thats no good news No this is my one & only original blog. Someone took my name.

Things r fine Zoonie. Was missin all of u for the time between. Just devoted to my studies.
Thanks for dropin by.
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hi.. was waiting for ur latest update too.. glad tt u r back. hope ur exams went well. love reading ur blogs. keep them coming.. Cheers!

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Thanks Man. It's a raelly good feelin to know that my work is worth waitin for. Thank u so much.
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Thanks Man. It's a raelly good feelin to know that my work is worth waitin for. Thank u so much.
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wooww.. u r very meticulous w comments given thou it was in some prevs post. Thanks for being so attentive!
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MANdy:

ITS my pleasure
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Demon

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Silent Scream

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story of my life.
very nice.
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True...
Me going thru something like this...

now just waiting to take back my life and give silence..

Let see...when..

Good one there Empress
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Been trying hard to comment here...i guess this is my 5th time!

Just wanted to say I love the way you bring all these emotions to the fore..

I pray that anyone who goes thru this has the courage and strength to love and trust again
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Oh brilliant!!! It finally went thru!!! LOL
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Mitz:

Sad to hear that u had to endure so much pain..but thats part of life i guess.
Thanks

Zoonie:

I wish that things are easy for u. Hope there's little pain for all of us.
Tc

Hissing Saint:

Thank u so much. ITs touching to know that u made so much effort. I know how annoying that can be!

thanks for ur wonderful words. I think we all have or shares in the joys & sorrows. Hope for the best.
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everybody goes thru this..
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sometimes it becomes so tough to comment to your posts... and No..I m not talking about the problem i faced commenting here yesterday......

I am talking about my inability to find right words to express my feelings towards the tender emotions that come across so wonderfully in ur posts. ur last posts 'misunderstood' and 'the missing part' for instance... i read them numerous times but could not write a comment... coz no words from me can do justice to the feeling that ur writings conveyed..
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and now coming to this post... dont you think that there is something very wrong with the relationship if the two involved are taking turns??
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Amitken:
thats one of te swetest comments i've ever gotten. its reaaly flaterring

i think its time to draw conclusions by finding te truth. there is ddefinitely somthing wrong.
thanks

Wiz:
how good u r 4 me!
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honey, i dont get online much in ramadan... this ramadan it seems to be different... i've been online for the nth time now just to see if u've replied. u haven't. been thru a lot since the past few days... so if u've finished this silent treatment kindly give me a call. i need support.
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wiz | 10.28.05 - 7:57 am | #

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hey!
how have u been... long time ?
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where r u?
u ok?
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Amitken & mitz

Thanks for the visit/ will b bak soon. just really busy with other things/ tc
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I hear that!
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Now it's my turn, I am snatching my life back, and you exist no more...

It's much beautiful in Hindi....

I hope you know hindi...

Aur iss baar meri baari hai,
Mein chheen loonga apni zindagi tujse,
aur tu khud khud-he ka nahin rahega.
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Misunderstood

2005-12-04T23:43:00.005-08:00

Why the guilt and the regret?

What is love without the trust and understanding of the other. A relationship both couldnt gauge what the other wanted was only doomed to fail.

I hope this is not a pain you bear.

Nicely written
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Hissing saint:

What is love without the trust and understanding of the other. A relationship both couldnt gauge what the other wanted was only doomed to fail.

well said.

It meant to say that so many times without even trying to solve the problem we let good things fade away only out of hesitation.

I gueess thats what they call "fatal hesitation"!
Thanks
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....or ego perhaps?
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though one....
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Hssiing Saint:
Good one! I'll pretend I dnt know.

Wiz:

hmm.. I thought u'd say more.
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Now you swap your wounds with guilt

While I regret letting a beautiful friendship die

Awesome..
Just awesome..

Only BlackEmpress can come up with something like this..too kewl

Take caer
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Zoonie:

Thanks, those were really nice words...the way only Z0o ie can write!

tc
Blackempress | 10.20.05 - 6:33 am | #

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Ego...Misunderstanding.....compressed feelings taking on harsh words at inopportune times....

How close I had come to the edge....

Just some personal ramblings...I guess I have just begun to see your entry in a different light now
The Hissing Saint | Homepage | 10.20.05 - 11:05 am | #

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Hissing Saint:

Good to hear about the new perspective.
It must've been a hard time.

Thanks for sharing.
Blackempress | 10.21.05 - 6:49 am | #

Taboo

2005-12-04T23:43:00.004-08:00

wow....you said that very well.
i personally think women are beautiful....and enjoy admiring the beauty of other women....i do not consider myself gay, but i do like women....i must say though your comment on beauty and it's association with women, is mostly true...they are a more refined specimen but men do exude beauty, it's in the eye of the beholder....when i see a man with facial hair...go-tee, side burns, etc....i find that beautiful, or a cut jaw, or a nice ass, legs, chest, belly, and um....other parts....they are beautiful....so it's all relative to what one person sees as beauty........very nice post.
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Mitz:

I so do agree with ya bout men & the beholder's eyes. I've come to terms with feminine appreciation of theur own gender as wel. just because they say it doesnt mean they are lesbians. Thanks gal.
love ya. U really give me hope/ SWear!
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Ofcourse there's teh religious point here. In my religion, homosexuality is unacceptable and as a firm believer in Islam I've come to the conclusion it is warped, perverse and psychologically unbalanced to be a homosexual. Not everyone may agree with me but i stand firm. It is taboo... in Islam as well as the society and I believe that for once the society holds teh correct stand... but it does seem to be loosing hold, and for that I'm sorry.
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Ofcourse there's teh religious point here. In my religion, homosexuality is unacceptable and as a firm believer in Islam I've come to the conclusion it is warped, perverse and psychologically unbalanced to be a homosexual. Not everyone may agree with me but i stand firm. It is taboo... in Islam as well as the society and I believe that for once the society holds teh correct stand... but it does seem to be loosing hold, and for that I'm sorry.
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i believe this entire issue is blown out of proportions. first by the people who oppose gays and then coutered by gays with some high funda theories..

I guess there is enough room in the world for people with various choices. and we can perhaps take it for granted that the no of people inclined towards opposite sex would always be much higher than people inclined towards same sex... So there is no real threat to the future of human kind..

The only thing... Gays should be more honest accepting and declaring their preferences, and the so called society must accept that everybody has a right to live the way they want.
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Blogwriiter:

This is a sensitive issue. Unfortuantely more hidden than the obvious but it is sad to see people forget the basic values.

Amitken:

U go guy! I like your liberal opionions. YOu are definitely the wonderful peace maker who says
"live & let live"

Thank goddness for that comment on the human kind.
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Aha! That is some food for thought! Freedom for persuing gay relationships has been a much debated issue for a quite a while now... some favor it coz it's their own life and some don't coz it is 'unnatural' in their opinion. Also the fact that people are not willing to discuss about this or talk openly on the issue itself suggests that this is still not an acceptable concept to most people. Guess everyone has his/her own life and he/she is the best judge of his/her own life, hai na?
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I ditto what Amit had to say.

Its about time that we stop looking at homosexuality as a disease or something perverted. For one can anyone explain to me what is so wrong about it neways other than the religious angle.

But again...a few of the points in your post....about beauty.

Who in the first place associated women with beauty?

How many men would in fact like to be called beautiful? For one most would associate with being akin to effiminate or even gay.

Coming to women...wasnt beauty literally a role assigned to women and that too by men. Think about it....the women played the role of the homemaker and of course the sex toy. While the man used his masculine physique to go out and earn the bread.

And again being gay does not necessarily relate to a fear of dominant women or the fear of women though it could be one of the many possible causes.

But you raise some valid questions....what happens to a son who finds himself with 2 moms or a girl raised by 2 dads. Would that be a wholesome atmosphere for the kid.

The Questions will always be there and so will homosexuality. Perhaps if we remove the prejudice the answers too will surface.

Great post Empress!
The Hissing Saint | Homepage | 10.14.05 - 2:47 am | #

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beauty is the materialization of the good character, through words or any other forms
wiz | 10.14.05 - 6:17 am | #

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Fundoo:
Good to see ya. I guess the only way to live in peace is to give people freedom. If we enforce laws against people's choices it's going to remain a taboo but the activities will continue anyways. Lets leave it with the ppl, hai na?

The Hissing Saint:

Thumbs up for your liberal outlook!

That was an interesting comment about beauty. Alright, I missed the idea of the origin of the word but i meant to state that if men find women attractive, why can't women see the same creatures in that light?
The future is definitely for time to show but these kind of issues are important & sensitive, but like you said, things will make their way as they come up.
thanks

WiZ

yes as have ur words lovely
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I has nicely been put up in words Empress....but me not comforable with someone being GAY in ma friend circle. I dont know...Im not saying that there's something wrong or real bad to have a GAY friend, as long as he is not making passess on you...but...

Hmmm....

If that’s what they wanted they knew the options before they chose to be who they are!!
I dont have an issue...but dont know how am I going to react after tht...will I just run away if s/he eva drops by in front of me...will I get nervous...or wht...

nice post anyway...
z000nie | Homepage | 10.14.05 - 11:24 pm | #

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z000nie:

Are you sure he is gay?
WiZ | 10.17.05 - 6:51 am | #

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Zoonie:

I can imagine ur position. I have felt that way too. ITs very diificult bc ppl at times make passes & yet never confront the issue.

THanks
Blackempress | 10.17.05 - 10:45 am | #

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Name:

Secret Admirer

2005-12-04T23:43:00.003-08:00

Stay

AmitKen | Homepage | 10.07.05 - 8:23 am | #

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Amitken:

U know How u win someone with the simplest of words!
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 5:39 am | #

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Awesome one....

Hmmm.....I wud like u to stay forever

What say??
z000nie | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 6:18 am | #

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I'd ask you to stay forever, that is for sure! you are AMAZING!!! SMUACKS!!!! xo
mitz | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 3:11 pm | #

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You are definitely here to stay. Grin.
the woman | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 10:32 pm | #

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Zoonie:

Sure! So when's first dinner?

Mitz:

I LOVE YA gal. THAnks (blush)
HUGs

The woman:
Proud to have u by my side
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.10.05 - 3:40 am | #

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I see a glimmer breaking out....is there change on the anvil.

This peice reminds me of a song by ELO....its in a totally different vein...yet...

"Got a ticket to the moon,
I'll be rising high above the earth so soon,
And the tears I cry might turn into the rain,
That gently falls upon your window,
You'll never know."
The Hissing Saint | Homepage | 10.10.05 - 9:54 am | #

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The lines tht I really liked are: 1-4, 6, 13, 15.

Nice one! But I'm wondering... You didn't spend too much time on coming up with this post...? Coz the the first six lines are amazing indeed, but the last nine lines seem to loose that magical touch of yours as one goes on reading. Especially the 9th and the 12th line.
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 10.11.05 - 5:16 am | #

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I hope I wasn't rude in my last comment. My sincere apologies... I just wanted to convey my honest opinion...
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 10.11.05 - 5:17 am | #

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The Hissing SAint:

Awesome! The gentleness is a common streak but u're rite that the concpet is different.
good to see ya.

ouzymandiaz

Not in the least! I followed every line u mentioned. IN fact whie readin ur coment I really appreciated that u took the trouble to write in that way & another thought was "oops! he caught me!" bout the time part!
Thanks dear & keep commenting like this. I love it .
Blackempress | 10.11.05 - 5:35 am | #

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This is beautiful. Very magical and exhilarating!
Alive | 11.30.05 - 5:50 pm | #

KIngs Nd Queens

2005-12-04T23:43:00.002-08:00

if i found a "prince charming" so to speak...i would show him that i wanted to be with him by doing an old traditional Irish jig for him, along with a finely cooked roast dinner....i'd plant one of me sweetest softest kissses on his lips ever so gently and courtzeeeeee....if that doesn't show him what will?
mitz | Homepage | 10.03.05 - 11:53 am | #

Gravatar Ahh! The feeling of nostalgia!!

Ahh! The days when I was single!

LOL!

Lemme see if I can conjure up something wicked!!
Alex | Homepage | 10.04.05 - 3:07 am | #
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.05.05 - 3:51 am | #

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Sorry that entry got deleted so reposted it & didnt want to lose ur comments.

Mitz:

That sounds so Sweet...perfect Fair Maiden. I think I'm changing my gender & bringing my horse to ur door step ..& then say the magic words!!!

ALex:

Lol
I'll be waiting to see wat U come up with.
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.05.05 - 3:55 am | #

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ummm.. lemme try

"Hey Fair Maiden,
be Fair to me.. be Fair to your heart... "

now.. howzzat?? :p
AmitKen | Homepage | 10.05.05 - 9:18 am | #

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"Hey Fairy....How you doing??"

Will that work...I never done something like this in ma life....so no experience whtso eva
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I think I'll give hints... like how much i yearn to own a tiara and how much I like to be a queen? Or maybe I could do with whining. I whine all the darn time. Hehee...

Silly. :P
the woman | Homepage | 10.06.05 - 12:09 am | #

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If you show up over a horse with a sword in your hand maybe you don´t need to say a thing.... lol
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Amitken:

A A cute romantic attempt. It's sweet.

Zoonie:

Hmm...U mean to say experience counts? Ur rite! Let me practice...
"Oh how great thou art?.." will have to look for something more original.

The woman:

I liked the start better than the end. :P Nothin is good or bad but thinking
makes it so.

Lavier:

Someone else was supposed to bring his horse to my door but hell!
It's a no-gender-bias era..so I think I'll take the horse...now where do I go?

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They say that chivalry is dead, but perhaps I'd show a fair maiden that I'd like to be her hero by finding out what she needs to be happy. You can't tell her that you want to help her because promises are dangerous, but you can show her that you're willing to help. It's tricky business making sure you're not just an interference. You have to give people space, but you can't be afraid to make yourself vulnerable. To be a hero you must be willing to lose. A place to start would be that I'd like to make her laugh.
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Tho I did read all, but your good writer. Really enjoy you lol. Pictures are saying alot. Good reading. I post your blog on my site: wellbone-keywords.blogspot.com. Your site is very spiritual I believe. So, I would like to hare you with others. I enjoyed it. My your spirit be bless.

wellbone
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SirBarret:

Neat. I think u have alot of courage. U can really be a hero.

Well-bone:
Thank you. It was a pleasure to hear such spiritual words from u. Yes I think we all cud use alittle blessing.
Blackempress | 10.13.05 - 5:54 am | #

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The missing part

2005-12-04T23:43:00.001-08:00

Your face no longer intrigues me.
Your voice no longer comforts me.
Your memories give no feeling.

Makes sense....
As time passess by, certain things fade out automatically...

For me, it was took a real long time...and the memories...you cant erase them right?

but they dont hurt me anymore..
z000nie | Homepage | 09.27.05 - 3:21 am | #

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if youre happier now...
Tyler | 09.27.05 - 6:58 am | #

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I like it.

Things I wanted to say... z000nie said it all. True enough... memories can't be erased but it does fade away after sometime.
the woman | Homepage | 09.27.05 - 9:07 am | #

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You took a very long time. But better late than never...
Anand | Homepage | 09.27.05 - 10:15 am | #

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It is indeed sad when you feel that distance...when you dont feel those emotions and warmth you once shared.

Tough decision but worth the pain it saves you both.
Alex | Homepage | 09.28.05 - 3:28 am | #

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Zoonie:
I guess thts y they call time a healer.

keep smlin

Tyler:
I suppose do find pleaure most times

The woman:
Missed u/ Good to hear from ya

Anand:
I suppose emotions r too unpredictable. Swings come & go.

Alex:
Yes some goodbyes are so much happier than hellos/
BLackempress | 09.28.05 - 7:28 am | #

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be well and sometimes letting go is the best thing
mitz | 09.30.05 - 4:50 pm | #

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that made me cry.........it was beautiful...........thank u for making me realise somink...........i have no reason to live... x
katie | 10.06.05 - 1:50 pm | #

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Name:

The missing part

2005-12-04T23:43:00.000-08:00

Memories R forever

2005-10-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

Hi

Weird people, aye? Right there, but mail!

Well I wanted to write since some time but just didn’t get the chance. You know what I mean! Busy as we are, doing nothing.

By now you’d be wondering why I am writing this; well a simple answer is because I’ve written to all the people who have meant something to me in my life. You know that already. I think you see through me while I only get glimpses of you. At least that’s what I’ve always gathered from the way you say things. No one else came up with better compliments than you (I told you that) besides the so many other things you say.

You know the best thing about you? I love the trust you’ve given. If I’ve ever seen a quality of a “best friend” -it was in you. I can’t call anyone that in my life, because there really is no one. You’re someone I could’ve called that. No clichés, no emotional trash here- just a plain sincere friendship with no strings attached!

Like I said, I always felt you knew me better than the other way around; so really sorry if I unintentionally hurt you. I never meant to. I never knew what you wanted nor what you expected so have been what I thought fit for the moment. I have no experience with men so excuse me! But I’ve adored the things you do & say. I really do. I love your sense of humor & easy going way (or should I say composure?)

I still can’t get over the fact that you’re the easiest person in the world to talk to. It’s so against me to say things as straight as I do to you. Well, that’s life! You’ve taught me lessons. Best of all, you let someone be who they are. That’s what I have been!

I just wanted to tell you that you’re one of the most charming people I’ve come across & hope that you go really far with the kind of potential you have.
You’ll always have sincere prayers from me & I hope you have a wonderful life ahead, full of promise & happiness-just as you would want it.

What does this all mean at the end of it? Well really nothing, I suppose. You must’ve heard all that from many others. It’s just a crazy mail from a moron, so you can act (/not act) like a numbskull & simply bin it!

Best wishes
(Your most potent enemy in the perfect disguise)

2005-10-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

Come walk by me, laugh with me and hold my hand...

Cant think of anything else,
and my story was finished in first sentence itself
z000nie | Homepage | 09.14.05 - 5:12 am | #

Gravatar make me feel your inner warmth with your gentle, yet firm touch.
let the wind take us down a path unknown and show us the way to the place we know we both want to be.

k, i'm seriously hung over...so that was my best attempt! MUAH! miss you too my dear! XO
mitz | Homepage | 09.14.05 - 9:22 am | #

Gravatar right when i am about to rip one so you can hear me giggle and see me give myself a pound and a what what
ty | 09.14.05 - 9:49 am | #

Gravatar (original ty)

"..., blending colors in this gray shaded mistful path, lightly warming the cold breeze of a winter morning."
ty (original) | 09.14.05 - 10:08 am | #

Gravatar Zoonie:
Light-hearted & touching all in one line.
Thanks.

MItz:
Cool summer morining. Somehow touching in a wonderful way. Thanks

ty:
Hmm. seems fun. Very different. thanks

(Original) ty:
Absolutely lovely. Thanks
BLackempress | 09.15.05 - 1:09 am | #

Gravatar Come walk by me... through the shadows, mist, by the edges of my sanity...if you dare...
You might find this strange but dont walk beside me, cause distance for me is like the air. I�m chokeing in the crowds of milion eyes, in the sreets of plaster filled with dead souls, clowns, human caricatures, brealy living on the real... when I think again stay away beacuse beside me you will lose another part of you..it will die in the chaos of many subreal lifes within me...
nimnolith | 09.15.05 - 9:15 am | #

Gravatar nimnolith:

ALl I can say is "WOW!"
BLackempress | 09.16.05 - 4:13 am | #

Gravatar NOTE 4 EVERYONE :

i'LL PUT UP THE ENTIRE COLLECTION NEXT SATURDAY.
THANK U TO EACH ONE FOR WRITING.
BLackempress | 09.16.05 - 4:16 am | #

Gravatar Hi everyone! thanks for writing, as mentioned above, Will put up every1's work together with ur names next saturday. thanks again.
BLackempress | 09.16.05 - 4:34 am | #

Gravatar Hi everyone!.
BLackempress | 09.16.05 - 4:36 am | #

Gravatar you sound like a happy person miss.
ty (orig) | 09.16.05 - 7:23 am | #

Gravatar nimnolith:
Thanks for being protective... I have some subreal lifes too, but i keep a low number or else i would lose my mind... It is very difficult to manage.
ty (original) | 09.16.05 - 11:34 am | #

Gravatar ty(orig):

Thanks for sharing ur thoughts. It's really nice to know em.
BLackempress | Homepage | 09.17.05 - 1:12 pm | #

Gravatar "come walk by me
on the sands of life
leaving the reminiscence
of our existence
to be washed away
by the tides of time..."

Would have posted couple of more lines tomorrow, but I read that you are gonna be putting em up on saturday... Its sunday early morning in this part of the world and I'm way too boozed to think beyond these couple of lines right now...hick! lol! If I ever complete it, I'd post it here...
Anand | Homepage | 09.17.05 - 5:48 pm | #

Gravatar thanks empress....always a pleasure stopping by your cul de sac....merci....and i'm SO IMPRESSED by TY....different side.....have a nice weekend my dear empress...and peace to u.....
Mitz | Homepage | 09.17.05 - 9:39 pm | #

Gravatar Come walk by me
on this meandering
path.
Have we spoken to life
today?

Lets be together
on its Carribean blue.
on skies dark with dew.

Come walk by me,
so we can be
another world
together.

Mists shall dissipate
with our coming.
Mists shall hide us
from prying eyes.

Darkness will find
a true enemy
in both you and me.

Come walk by me,
on sunbeams
and moonbeams;
on bubbles of love.

Walk by me
my heart
my love
my favourite
form of life!(hehe)

Let me bring you joy
in a world of steel
Let me see your smile
behind that iron mask.

Come walk with me,
so we can fight
the banality of this world
together.

come dearest
walk with me...

I guess I'm a little late in coming here How've you been?take care
Chaos | Homepage | 09.17.05 - 11:00 pm | #

Gravatar Come walk by me..
it's good for health.

:p
AmitKen | Homepage | 09.18.05 - 8:22 am | #

Gravatar another one... .....

"come walk by me

i promise we wont get into a race, there'd be no winner or loser. Can we just walk hand in hand, and try to see that horizon? Together.

come walk by me."
AmitKen | Homepage | 09.18.05 - 8:34 am | #

Gravatar Chaos:

er...... ok!

YeAh!!!!

But we got to control the power dear. Or else we lose it, ok?

kisses..
ty (original) | 09.18.05 - 5:19 pm | #

Gravatar Ps. Im reaaly happy. =D
ty (original) | 09.18.05 - 5:21 pm | #

Gravatar ive been so so... but now i feel incredibly great!
Thanks... and how have you been ?
ty (original) | 09.18.05 - 5:38 pm | #

Gravatar Anand:
really good start..hope to see the rest of it.

Chaos:
AMAZING gal, SImply AMAZING!

Ty:
U always seem to brighten the place.

Mitzee:
U know how to compliment. THanks.
BLackempress | 09.19.05 - 2:33 am | #

Gravatar Amitken:

LOl. U rule!
BLackempress | 09.19.05 - 2:37 am | #

Gravatar ... in the fields of wizdom".

ps. wizdom is not my homeland or my town....or world. ( lol )
Wiz | 09.19.05 - 9:46 am | #

Gravatar im just in love... talking senseless... long time i don�t see you.
Tyler | 09.19.05 - 12:26 pm | #

Gravatar long time no see.... love makes my english look pretty lame... lol
Tyler | 09.19.05 - 1:36 pm | #

Gravatar Tyler:
It'll come back to u when u try. Im there with u always...dont u feel there aanymore?
BLAckEmpress | Homepage | 09.19.05 - 11:38 pm | #

Gravatar Time for new posty now BlackEmpress

Z000nie is back to irritate you

z000nie | Homepage | 09.20.05 - 12:44 am | #

Gravatar ssure i do, and is strong, when i focus it gets even stronger
Tyler | 09.20.05 - 6:34 am | #

Gravatar Come walk by me, and lets talk about anything, as we get away from everything, while we wander through it.

Come let our legs kick at a pace set by interest, interest in whatever lures you, my dear.

I will lead and I will follow, sharply dive and duck.
I will not tarry but listen all through the viaducts.

Our minds together, and our words a song, pulling us softly through the city.

Once we are through, me and you, we may need to stop walking to catch up.
sirbarrett | Homepage | 09.23.05 - 3:49 pm | #

2005-10-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

Stay

AmitKen | Homepage | 10.07.05 - 8:23 am | #

Amitken:

U know How u win someone with the simplest of words!
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 5:39 am | #

Awesome one....

Hmmm.....I wud like u to stay forever

What say??
z000nie | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 6:18 am | #

I'd ask you to stay forever, that is for sure! you are AMAZING!!! SMUACKS!!!! xo
mitz | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 3:11 pm | #

You are definitely here to stay. Grin.
the woman | Homepage | 10.08.05 - 10:32 pm | #

Zoonie:

Sure! So when's first dinner?

Mitz:

I LOVE YA gal. THAnks (blush)
HUGs

The woman:
Proud to have u by my side
BLackempress | Homepage | 10.10.05 - 3:40 am | #

I see a glimmer breaking out....is there change on the anvil.

This peice reminds me of a song by ELO....its in a totally different vein...yet...

"Got a ticket to the moon,
I'll be rising high above the earth so soon,
And the tears I cry might turn into the rain,
That gently falls upon your window,
You'll never know."
The Hissing Saint | Homepage | 10.10.05 - 9:54 am | #

The lines tht I really liked are: 1-4, 6, 13, 15.

Nice one! But I'm wondering... You didn't spend too much time on coming up with this post...? Coz the the first six lines are amazing indeed, but the last nine lines seem to loose that magical touch of yours as one goes on reading. Especially the 9th and the 12th line.
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 10.11.05 - 5:16 am | #

I hope I wasn't rude in my last comment. My sincere apologies... I just wanted to convey my honest opinion...
ouzymandiaz | Homepage | 10.11.05 - 5:17 am | #

The Hissing SAint:

Awesome! The gentleness is a common streak but u're rite that the concpet is different.
good to see ya.

ouzymandiaz

Not in the least! I followed every line u mentioned. IN fact whie readin ur coment I really appreciated that u took the trouble to write in that way & another thought was "oops! he caught me!" bout the time part!
Thanks dear & keep commenting like this. I love it .
Blackempress | 10.11.05 - 5:35 am | #

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Love the title!

This is so nice.
the woman | 09.10.05 - 9:56 am | #

You do sound a lot like a doctor
de.vile | Homepage | 09.10.05 - 11:48 pm | #

Your poem intrigues me (as it always does)......

Does true love really bind someone.......and if it really is love.....what is it that you wish to run away from.
Alex | Homepage | 09.11.05 - 2:48 am | #

beautiful poetry!!!
word_smith | 09.11.05 - 3:22 am | #

The woman:
THanks dear :*

De.vile:
THats a cmpliment whereever u picked that from

Alex:
I sure wish I cud answer that...If the love is an illusion then wat do we do?

Word-smith:
I am so impressed by the alias. Thanks
Blackempress | 09.12.05 - 3:46 am | #

a key would be handy?
ty | 09.12.05 - 7:32 am | #

i feel like in the same place either
ty | 09.12.05 - 8:01 pm | #

The love is not an illusion...merely a drug. Once you start on it, you get hooked, and pretty soon, it becomes a requirement. A nice poem, though I sadly find it disturbingly accurate.

"Love is a many splendid thing."
pfft...and what happened to him?
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 09.12.05 - 11:23 pm | #

Seems like ur somewhat into toxic relations.
Anonymous | 09.12.05 - 11:53 pm | #

Seems like ur somewhat into toxic relations.
Anonymous | 09.13.05 - 12:04 am | #

ty:
What would the key open?

We all seem to find ourselves in this position at some point..

Cruel Angel:

That sounds so true. I like how u said that.
Cudnt help smiling at the last line.
Blackempress | 09.13.05 - 12:37 am | #

the key would open the locked jail.

And two people must use wisely the key at the same time to open their hearts and free their souls.
ty | 09.13.05 - 6:03 pm | #

ty:
remarkably xpressed. thanks..will try finding it.
BLackempress | Homepage | 09.13.05 - 11:37 pm | #

i can't be ty is so, um.....deep.

that was beautiful darling....just made me a little sad.....but in a longing way.
mitz | Homepage | 09.14.05 - 9:24 am | #

Like the title... and just Loved the last line..

Wonderful ...
AmitKen | Homepage | 09.18.05 - 8:17 am | #

Ouch! You can really feel the sense of betrayl for what the person did to the other. Deserted and left in painful withdrawl.
sirbarrett | Homepage | 09.19.05 - 9:44 pm | #

Mitz:

Ur're the queen of ur own stylle/

AMitken:

I like ur pick as always.

sirbarrett :
Wonderfully expressed!
Blackempress | 09.23.05 - 2:04 am | #

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2005-10-13T02:30:00.000-07:00

Hi..! I'm sorry I'm late. Here's the complete one...

"Come walk by me...
In the miasma of ambiguity
enveloping the shores

Come walk by me...
In the obscurity of the night
bleached by moonlight

Come walk by me...
In the resonance of splashes
of incensed waves

Come walk by me...
And let the night witness
our fading footprints

Come walk by me
on the sands of life
leaving the reminiscence
of our existence
to be washed away
by the tides of time..."
Anand | Homepage | 09.23.05 - 5:59 pm | #

Sounds like Brothers in arms you post, Empress.... lovely.. : )
Tyler | 09.24.05 - 7:07 pm | #

ANand:

NO prob. See I posted that up. thanks

Tyler:

Ur' a sweetheart/
BLackempress | Homepage | 09.25.05 - 7:57 am | #

Come walk by me, and lets talk about anything, as we get away from everything, while we wander through it.

Come let our legs kick at a pace set by interest, interest in whatever lures you, my dear.

I will lead and I will follow, sharply dive and duck.
I will not tarry but listen all through the viaducts.

Our minds together, and our words a song, pulling us softly through the city.

Once we are through, me and you, we may need to stop walking to catch up
sirbarrett | Homepage | 09.25.05 - 12:42 pm | #

Thanks Empress Its an honour to find a mention on ur blog...
AmitKen | Homepage | 09.26.05 - 2:44 am | #

all of them were wonderfully done...i quite enjoyed this....kisses my dear and hugs....keep up the awesome posts....always a pleasure. dap.
Mitz | Homepage | 09.26.05 - 9:39 pm | #

sirbarrett :
ur a little late but no prob. It's really nice work. thanks for the contribution.

Amitken:
U make me feel honored with ur compliments.

MItz:
U'r Really a pal. Thanks. love u.
BLackempress | 09.27.05 - 2:37 am | #

Epitaphh

2005-09-14T00:08:00.000-07:00

ROTFL :o)AmitKen Homepage 09.05.05 - 12:36 pm #

Back after a loooong time........How are you doing.....guess the journal has a little probs of its own....if it does not load just try reloading. It should workAlex Homepage 09.06.05 - 3:42 am #

Arken Tenna walked at night,Arken saw his final sight,Now the question seems to be,What in the world did Tenna see?Cruel Angel Homepage 09.06.05 - 9:39 am #

Hey! It sure has been a long time. I'm sorry I couldn't reply to your comments on my blog earlier; I was on a vacation :-D How are you doing?Anand Homepage 09.07.05 - 3:13 am #

Hi! How are you? How are things? I'll hopefully reply to your mail soon.Ellipses M Homepage 09.07.05 - 3:14 am #

ROTFL means Rolling On The FLoor (out of laughing too much) ...AmitKen Homepage 09.07.05 - 3:43 am #

Amitken:That's really a treat to hear hoestly. thanksAlex:I'll see to that. thanks.Angel:I like wat u came up with that one. Neat. Anand:Hope u had a good vacation. I did log there good to have u back. EllipsesMez fine. Will b lookinf fwd to the mail.BK 09.07.05 - 5:20 am #

Good one! :PAconiite Homepage 09.07.05 - 5:54 am #

Good one black empress Take care and Greetz!!z000nie Homepage 09.07.05 - 6:26 am #

It was a long break from Blog On vacation or something?z000nie Homepage 09.07.05 - 6:27 am #

Aconite:Been wondering where u've been hiding mysterious lady. Hope u enjoyed that. Zoonie:I cudn't find something to write on. :PDecided to break the emotional routine. WIlll get back to it next post ThANKSBlackempress 09.07.05 - 11:38 pm #

Hmm... I get it. I do? Hmmm...the woman Homepage 09.08.05 - 1:22 am #

main yaha hoo neeche tumhare pairon ke;milna hai to upar aa jao.....word_smith Homepage 09.09.05 - 2:05 am #

It wasn't mehirdu Homepage 09.09.05 - 10:45 am #

the woman:Hmm...We'll get to solving that!
word_smith: Freaky but really good.
Hirdu:Long time. It's really nice to see u.
BLackempress Homepage 09.10.05 - 6:41 am #

A fool's paradise

2005-09-13T23:54:00.001-07:00

Love the title! This is so nice.the woman 09.10.05 - 9:56 am #

You do sound a lot like a doctor de.vile Homepage 09.10.05 - 11:48 pm #

Your poem intrigues me (as it always does)......Does true love really bind someone.......and if it really is love.....what is it that you wish to run away from.Alex Homepage 09.11.05 - 2:48 am #

beautiful poetry!!!word_smith 09.11.05 - 3:22 am #

The woman:THanks dear :*
De.vile:THats a cmpliment whereever u picked that from
Alex:I sure wish I cud answer that...If the love is an illusion then wat do we do?
Word-smith:I am so impressed by the alias. Thanks
Blackempress 09.12.05 - 3:46 am #

a key would be handy?ty 09.12.05 - 7:32 am #

i feel like in the same place eitherty 09.12.05 - 8:01 pm #

The love is not an illusion...merely a drug. Once you start on it, you get hooked, and pretty soon, it becomes a requirement. A nice poem, though I sadly find it disturbingly accurate."Love is a many splendid thing."pfft...and what happened to him?Cruel Angel Homepage 09.12.05 - 11:23 pm #

Seems like ur somewhat into toxic relations.Anonymous 09.12.05 - 11:53 pm #

Seems like ur somewhat into toxic relations.Anonymous 09.13.05 - 12:04 am #

ty:
What would the key open? We all seem to find ourselves in this position at some point.

.Cruel Angel: That sounds so true. I like how u said that. Cudnt help smiling at the last line.Blackempress 09.13.05 - 12:37 am #

the key would open the locked jail.And two people must use wisely the key at the same time to open their hearts and free their souls.ty 09.13.05 - 6:03 pm #

ty:remarkably xpressed. thanks..will try finding it.BLackempress Homepage 09.13.05 - 11

A fool

2005-09-13T23:54:00.000-07:00

Final TIme

2005-09-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

very well written... keep it up...Avik Homepage 08.28.05 - 8:08 am #

This feels trueTy 08.28.05 - 10:17 pm #

want some tips to help you to sleep well, young lady?if you sleep well youll be more awake in the next day...Wiz 08.28.05 - 10:19 pm #

Avik:Thanks for the appreciation as well as the encouragement.Ty:Seems too true for me.Wiz:I guess I'm fine. It comes & goes. Been that way always. thanks.Blackempress 08.29.05 - 1:39 am #

~A friendly, tearless goodbye.Nothing left to sayBut much would come later.Emotions stifled,Awesome....Too good empress!!z000nie Homepage 08.29.05 - 6:35 am #

Zoonie:its the inevitable fate. Thanks.BLackempress Homepage 08.30.05 - 8:10 am #

nice piece of writingbtw : u've been tagged http://sushi4beginners.blogspot..../08/ tagged.htmlblogwriter Homepage 08.31.05 - 2:27 am #

I love this... thanks for sharing...AmitKen Homepage 08.31.05 - 5:34 am #

Beautiful words!!Good bye to loved one is always painful isn't it? But then the best way to go from here is forward... leaving everything behind hai na? Live in today and you'll live life for ever! Fundoo Homepage 08.31.05 - 5:49 am #

sumfin new...http://reality-virtuality.blogspot.com/blogwriter Homepage 09.01.05 - 2:34 am #

Blogwriter:Thanks buddy. I'll chek em both. Amitken:It's always nice to hear wat u have to say. Fundoo:U always seem to raise my spirits. unofrtunately sad but yea the way is forward.BLackempress Homepage 09.01.05 - 7:59 am #

Expressive. Very well written. Keep it going.the woman Homepage 09.03.05 - 10:04 am #

wanting to cry....to reach out and stop it from happening....to utter those words...i love u....but we hold back...why do people always hold back....we should do what we want...what our hearts tell us is true....oh that touched home....beautiful.Mitz Homepage 09.04.05 - 9:50 am #

The woman:U're short & swwet ...alwaysMitz:That was really touching ...Unexpected deep!BLackempress Homepage 09.05.05 - 6:18 am #

love letter

2005-08-23T20:58:00.000-07:00

People come and people go.....each leaves an impression ....and some a void.The void can never be filled nor can their presence be replaced. Maybe "moving on" would mean learning to live with the void. Perhaps we must not try to find replacements and just accept a new person for what he is rather than search for shadows of the past. But then again ......its good you found strength in your trial......take care and wish you all the best for your futureAlex Homepage 08.17.05 - 7:23 am #

'replacement'?? is that possible? i think not. if it can be replaced, it wasn't love..loved the last line, beautiful AmitKen Homepage 08.17.05 - 9:47 am #

oh that was so sweet.like filling an adults foot with a baby's foot. wow....nicely said. hope u r doing well beauty queen.mitz 08.17.05 - 1:09 pm #

That was so beautiful!! =.)Ive been feeling pain lately... I barelly remembered how it felt like... I am feeling love and pain... So weird... I am feeling sick but I suddenly get better...than worse... than better... maybe ive been too far from peopleTyler D. 08.17.05 - 8:51 pm #

Thank you for making me experience love too... I tought that i couldn´tTyler D. 08.17.05 - 8:59 pm #

And i suffered too, i knew you had to be tough in your own but was tough for me to watch too...i was selfish not respecting your choices... it´s just tough for me to be unable to do anything to help, but if it made you a better person...I changed too you know... You will notice that i am different than some months ago...Tyler D. 08.17.05 - 9:31 pm #

Alex:Thanks for ur wishes. I agree with the part of accepting new ppl but something needs to take the old pains away too. dont know how to say that. i've been trying to opne ur page since dys but it just gets stuck. Amitken:Replace an love is quite untrue. I agree but perhaps someone can repalce the old wounds. Mitz:Thanks. I like ur selection from the work. I thought about the comparison of the person & thats wat it was like. Tyler:Yes U do seem changeed...somewat heart-broken. but I sense the maturity in the time lapse. U made me better in many ways.U made me face myself. Its'' really good to see u again.BLackempress Homepage 08.18.05 - 7:41 am #

ive been a little broken lately... lolTyler D. 08.19.05 - 8:30 am #

you're such a wonderful person. you just are.Mitz Homepage 08.21.05 - 9:26 am #

MItz:I have wonderful ppl like u who see me that way. Beautiful ppl find goodness in others too. thanks.Blackempress 08.22.05 - 2:44 am #

Memories R Forever

2005-08-23T20:51:00.000-07:00

Curtailed Tale

" Aww..it was so nice of u to think that things u say might hurt me.aw :) poor thing with a heart & soul:(
wat U forgot was that I'm a heartless, mindless person. "
HA HA HA :P

":P I know u r but I still love making a fool out of u...though that comes without much effort on my side bc ur highly"gifted" in that respect!
2 bad dude U asked for it!"

The whole soul story

2005-08-17T01:34:00.000-07:00

I just know that whatever trial it is that you face, you shall definitely surpass it with the kind of faith and the will you hold so close to heart. And this post........I have no words.....you are simply amazin with your use of words.Take careAlex Homepage 08.09.05 - 10:11 am #

if you focus just on yourself, you will never be able o understand your surroundings and evolve. Take a look around the world. Not around yourself. Forget that you are here. Forget about your life. What can you learn outside of you that is really worthy to pay attention to? When the inside is shadowy, you can bring light from the outside, if your eyes really wants to see the inspiring beauty. Just take a sit by the grass.wiz 08.09.05 - 11:16 am #

well said.Aconiite Homepage 08.10.05 - 4:44 am #

A good one! the woman Homepage 08.10.05 - 6:12 am #

Alex:Honored sincerely by ur words. thanks.Wiz:I do agree but life's greatst secrets are within urself. Aconite:Thanks lady.The woman:Nice to see ya. Will mail ya soon. miss u .BLackempress Homepage 08.10.05 - 8:27 am #

amazing post dear.. and yes listening to that voice inside is really great, but at times it tough to listen to it..... and thats the tough part.AmitKen Homepage 08.10.05 - 9:26 am #

not all.wiz 08.10.05 - 3:10 pm #

Amitken:Hmm...U're right i missed out on that part. Well atleast till its understood it's the best voice possible. WIz:True. I'll try to focus on both. Thanks for the realisation.BLAckEmpress Homepage 08.11.05 - 12:30 am #

yur welcome dearAnonymous 08.11.05 - 8:12 am #

Hey...Will be mailng ya as soon as I can. This was good, esp the pic...the pic is exactly how I am feeling right now...Do keep me up with how life is turning out for youTake careellipses M Homepage 08.11.05 - 12:52 pm #

Ellipses:Thanks dear. I wanted to mail u tooo. Just not getting enuff time. I will b looking fowrd to ur word. thanks for dropping by.BLackempress Homepage 08.12.05 - 2:08 pm #

amazing post. .. however tough the situation might seem... with ur insight i am sure u'll come through unscathed !!ash Homepage 08.13.05 - 8:56 am #

BeautifulAnonymous 08.13.05 - 1:25 pm #

Ash:Hi, thanks for ur faith & ur words. Its good to c u ..Anonymous:thanks. I wish I knew who u were. BLackempress Homepage 08.14.05 - 8:40 am #

i'd like u to read my latest blog. tell me what u think. also ask Taz.blogwriter Homepage 08.14.05 - 4:59 pm #

2005-08-13T03:12:00.000-07:00

MEMORIES R FOREVER

FLIRTATION NEVER CEASES

Dearest Nida,

Does Love Really Have to hurt? I mean I see your pretty face & it makes my day. Why can�t I tell you that you�re the sweetest thing I�ve come across since the past 20 years of my dark & dull life? Why is it that the world must prevent two wonderful beings from loving? It is unfair that time kept such a wonder like you away from me for so long. I would�ve been so much happier since before.

Did I ever tell you that your dad stole once? Yes, it�s true. He stole two stars from the sly & placed them in your eyes. That is why they sparkle so much. It is the reason they are so beautiful. Your smile is like a lovely fountain with a beautiful weather in a garden. It�s so pleasant & serene. Your laughter is like magic.

If I had the power I�d use your beauty to replace all the evil in the world & it would change the universe. The masterpiece God carved deep into your personality is enough to lighten the world & it�d retain its shine even after giving so much. To hear your voice& to see your face are the best living moments of my life. I love every minute I share with you. I cherish everything about you.

My life was so empty before I met you but now I am a happy face in the crowd. I live day-to-day thinking of you & counting the time till I would meet you again. You wouldn�t have seen an obsession like mine. Every song & every poem reminds me of you. Days seem so filled & happy now that you are a part of my life.

I believe we were meant to be. I would want you in each day of my life & even after that. I love you so much. I wish you knew how much then only you�d know what I meant when I said about love hurting-but then pain & pleasure go hand-in-hand.

I really want you to know that no matter what happens I will always love you & if you should ever feel alone know that there is one person who�d love to have you even more than oxygen.

Loads of love

Here�s a song from me to you:

Accidentally In Love
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone, Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come onMove a little closer
Come on, Come onI want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on Jump a little higher
Come on, come onIf you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on

We were once Upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love,Accidentally
Come on, come onSpin a little tighterCome on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on Just get yourself inside her Love ...I'm in love

Blessed

2005-08-10T23:20:00.000-07:00

well that sounds inspiring. Do you paint? MoooOoo
Missy Homepage 08.05.05 - 3:27 am #

let it remain uncurable... really
AmitKen Homepage 08.05.05 - 7:09 am #

i feel the wind in my lips when i close my eyes...i really miss someone, the work makes me exhausted and the love... i can't express...wiz 08.05.05 - 8:20 pm #

Missy:
Oh no. not in the least. this is a pic from my digi-cam. I do photograpy.

Amitken:U made me smile. Yea this is one love I'd like to b stay with.

Wiz:
Try to let those feelings flow. B easy on the work for a while. Close ur eyes & feel the wind ...it'll help u get better in no time. good luck
BLackempress Homepage 08.06.05 - 7:10 am #

oh i can say the same
AconitE Homepage 08.06.05 - 8:26 am #

oh and yes, you can link me, AconitE
Homepage 08.06.05 - 8:29 am #

I need a real kiss... it makes me happy
wiz 08.06.05 - 6:46 pm #

Aconite
YEAH! thanks

WIz:Here's a fervent one. hope u like it :*
Blackempress 08.08.05 - 5:01 am #

thankswiz 08.08.05 - 9:09 pm #

Memories R forever

2005-08-10T23:05:00.000-07:00

" I wish I could've consoled you but...
I know it's a solitary painful situation. It's good to be ur friend.
I know this sounds stupid but hell! Good luck with the studies."

"It's ok moron. I just needed to get that out. that's how I take my stress out. By talking & U were the only 1 I cud find whom I know won't spill the beans (if u know wat I mean). "

"Glad to be there for u. It's honorable to be ur confidante.
It's just a friendly concern. Honest.
I know u might hate me for bringing this up again. Don't give up without a fight & later regretting wat U could've had. Mayb she needs alittle reassurance that U want her too( we girls need that) Anyways I know u know ppl well. Good luck with the work. Me want u to do well. tc"

This was written in regard to his ending relation that he cherished.

2005-08-06T04:16:00.000-07:00

Think

Its very hard to say. We all know what our past is. And we all know the thing that went wrong and more than often when we think about our past, we wish we could fix that, so that we'd have had a future like we wanted. And somehow we can never be sure of our future, so we stick to our past and we try and hold on to it, wishing to set those things right that went wrong, coz of the feeling of regret in some sense. Looking back upon my life, I'd choose the future. For me, past remains in past. Past has been en experience to me. It has taught me so many things in life. And i have bitter and sweet memories of it. But when I look back upon my past, with with I have made my peace, I think of only sweet and beautiful memories, which makes me dream of an even better future. So I'd choose that important event from the future instead of fixing something in past.
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my past is fixed already in my memories, so i would go to the important event.
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Anand:

I felt the same way that we try living there because its safer While the future is unpredictable.
I really agree with everything. In my case I made a tiny blunder I always regret. lost what was surely mine.

Excellent pick.

Wiz:

Bravo! Thats superb. I call it "progress". Its something I expected from u.
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thank you miss... lady...

my memory is already set to remember just the good things, i look back one year ago and i don�t recognize myself anymore, i am a new "fixed" person after a while.

Don�t regret the past, you are closer to the future if you look ahead...

past is just lessons and good memories.
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I am what I am because of what I've experienced in the past. So yes, no changing the past for me! As for the future, I'd rather not know anything at all otherwise where's the surprise?So basically I would pick where I am right now ie the present!Its the only time of my life I have a say in!

How have you been all this while empress?
Ellipses M | Homepage | 07.31.05 - 3:18 am | #

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I agree with Ellipses.

wise words
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change a past event.... knowin future holds no charm.... and whats worse... it takes away the charm of living!
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Wiz:
Yes I can see the wonderful "smart" person that you have evoloved into.
You'd b ur senior's envy.

Ellipses:

I am good although as you can see I am some what short of data

I like "live for the moment attitude."
It shows that you enjoy life.
Bravo!

Blogwriter:

U too have a passion for life. Its greeat to be living & enjoying the present.
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You are wonderful yourself. You are everywhere!
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Knowing about a future event, is futile, coz u anyway cant stop it from happening or change the way it happens.
And the past has already happened.. and its consequences have already been faced. So there isn't any need to revisit it...

Frankly I wouldn't choose any of the options. If its possible i'd like to know what among many options that i have 'today', is the best one
AmitKen | Homepage | 08.01.05 - 9:19 am | #

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Knowing a future event is much better, you know it's coming and you just might be able to make money off of it
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Amitken:

I like that thought. INteresting. Its good to see many practical ppl.
NIce to see u after so long.

Roz:

The best one yet. I like ur business approach to life.
Empress | 08.02.05 - 2:07 am | #

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I'd choose to go deaf and not know anything abt the past or the future! No point changing anything--I'd much rather enjoy this ride while I can.
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Oh that is such a hard one...if the future had anything to do with my kids, in a negative way, I'd pick future....but how would I know? besides the only thing I'd change in my past is being in love with an asshole who is my X now, which would mean that i would NOT have my kids, and therefore WOULD not choose past for that reason alone....so FUTURE IT IS....!
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hmmm. i shall try and know the future instead. cause somehow i think whatever that has happned, has happened for good. And thats why changing the past would like as if i'm taking one more risk!
AconitE | Homepage | 08.03.05 - 2:47 am | #

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Heretic:

I'd suggest u lose none of ur senses & still enjoy the ride. otherwise u'll miss most of the fun of today as well...u cud tell the fortune/past teller to just go to hell!

Mitzee:

baby i was missing u. . . well seems like u look far. Since the past is dead let sleeping dogs lie...enjoy the future. best wishes from moi.

Aconitte:

Hey that s a new thought....yea....neat..it would give a different today changing the past & who knows it cud b worse. GOOD. thanks for the new sight.
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I guess it would be my past......so many things i could change. But then i guess I would be left pondering over what to change
Alex | Homepage | 08.03.05 - 8:04 am | #

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i would change it forsure!!
Missy | Homepage | 08.03.05 - 1:08 pm | #

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too much to fix in the past
ty | Homepage | 08.03.05 - 2:04 pm | #

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Alex:

I guess it would eventually b the more important issues.

Missy:

Yes it does feel like that. easier said though.

ty:

I think we all hav that in common. Perhaps today's focus would b better off on the long run.
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Oh.. oopzz.. err.. am I stumped?! :O) Quite a few opinions have already been posted... each one of these is unique, must say! Well... well if it is 'knowing future' vs 'fixing past' then my choice would be fixing past coz even if you 'know' future, there is nothing you can do to 'fix' it! Imagine you came to know that you come to know that you are gonna die tomorrow! :O) Guess then you'd lose your present worrying about the future, what say?!
Fundoo | Homepage | 08.04.05 - 4:55 am | #

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sooo....
ahm...
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mon cher empress...merci beaucoup...i miss u too....you always light up my day with your gorgeous pics and words.....thank you.
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2005-08-06T03:57:00.000-07:00

Memories R forever

With time I've gotten accustomed to knowing & appreciating the truth more than anything. I was glad to hear the answer I recieved yesterday.

In regard to food I said :
"The only mutual love of my life."'

She responded with:
"They aren't all exactly one-sided. The intensity may not be the same but they are there. "

shucks!

Memories R forever

2005-08-01T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hopeless Me:

I often think that your life should be so peaceful when I’m not there. ..
& I think that I should give you more time to be peaceful because I’m sure I give you enough reasons to hate me
But then I can’t help bugging because you’re too lovable & I can’t help falling for your charms…
Well sad story huh? Life’s hard.

The lady:
Hmmm…you’ve been thinking again. Life without you is empty not peaceful. & why on earth would I hate someone who showers me with all that love? tc

Good Friends & treasured times

2005-08-01T04:23:00.000-07:00

You know numbskull…I was thinking of all the jerks in my life & you seem to take the lead. Thanks Fido for the kind of friendship & trust you gave me. It’s the sweetest one I’ve ever known.

Morning :) you know for one thing you think too much for an early Sunday morning :P
Thanks Dido. I’m not sure if I deserve the compliment but hey A free one doesn’t hurt does it!

And stop calling me sweet! Cuz I’m not. I am rough & tough & manly & rude& muscular. I am THE MAN! You moron! “MORON.”

Ahem! Who the hell called you sweet? No wonder you are such a numbskull “macho” Wanna-be :P I called the friendship sweet. (Couldn’t lose the opportunity to insult you, It’s so not me!!!) Plus I couldn’t tolerate the thought that you’d be too happy.

I know you feel obliged but don’t thank me for the sadism I display on you.

It’s my pleasure. :) After all what are arch enemies for?

31.7.05

2005-07-29T04:26:00.000-07:00

God, I was thinking of my friend... and when I read this.. this is exactly what I wanted to tell her.

It's just amazing. Like telepathy... and you wrote it so well.

Just amazing. It's nice... really. And good selection of pic.. as always.
the woman | Homepage | 07.21.05 - 12:15 pm | #

The woman:

Thanks. I'm so happy to hear that-, makes me feel closer to u. thanks alot.
Blackempress | 07.22.05 - 4:42 am | #

beautiful!!!!
could that possibly be U in the pic.?
Mitzzee | Homepage | 07.23.05 - 9:39 pm | #

Mitzee:
ummm....close.... Its my sis. THanks. Nice to see u.
BLackempress | 07.24.05 - 11:43 pm | #

The wind is a loyal messenger.
Wiz | 07.25.05 - 11:43 pm | #

Some moments ago I felt like coming here.

I chased a strong emotion.
Wiz | 07.26.05 - 12:04 am | #

Wiz:
I'm so glad that U followed it. Was waiting to hear from u.
Blackempress | 07.26.05 - 4:04 am | #

I lost link of your blog somehow. Fortunately stumbled on it 2 mins back. Will be going through all your post..to update myself.

Hope you doing good!!

Greetz.
Z000nie | Homepage | 07.26.05 - 5:30 am | #

Zoonie:

I thought my old friends had gotten bored. Its really nice to see u again.
Thanks
BLackempress | 07.27.05 - 5:18 am | #

that was absolutely beautiful
liz | Homepage | 07.28.05 - 1:25 am | #

Thank u LIz...welcome here/
BLackempress | 07.28.05 - 1:59 am | #

I mean... you used to draw things in the air with your pen...in your class...

At least the time I saw it...

Your sis has nails just like yours...
wiz | 07.28.05 - 4:15 pm | #

wiz:
Hmm ur observant.... I better keep a watch on what ur watching
blackempress | 07.29.05 - 1:08 am | #

2005-07-28T00:31:00.000-07:00

Garden

2005-07-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

Moi's Brat

Yea the name suits her...It's got the "m" part in it ...he he he

It's hard to believe that a strong person is compared to flowers & butterflies. I often think why my mind associates painful statements to that name. There's a certain intense pain that caused silence. It still lingers. There's something that lead to inhibition- the highest point. No amount of trust would change that. There is an element of reticence & consciousness that would never let anyone too close & makes people keep guessing what she's about. All that happened has left it's mark & the beauty left trailing is what creates the 'enigma'.
I want to be let in. I want to figure out what you're about. I want to heal the pain by setting it free. It's my aim that's going to make me feel better & likewise set u free...but this life of mine I feel is too short for you...

2005-07-25T05:20:00.002-07:00

Mismatch

2005-07-25T05:20:00.001-07:00

Best

2005-07-25T05:20:00.000-07:00

Worked1

Precious Illusions

2005-07-25T05:14:00.001-07:00

Lets see the exact things that were going on at the time of creation...
I wanted to make a booklet & portray these baby pics with the caption

"What can you say about our potential for being friends?"
Ans: Very high considering the similarities( had the frowning faces in mind)

My thought was "low" because of the expressions. The fire & water element are clear in it.
One is the aggressive, hot-tempered babe screaming out orders or grumbling while the other says "yea the world's got it's own problems"

The next page would've said
" How long do U think it could last" with the answer "probably forever"

& the third page would've said" Is there anything I've forgotten to tell u?"
Ans: just a reminder that I will always love you.

Sweet Inspirations! If only I could put this much brain in my work it would work wonders!

What do I think now is..."difficult"
There is some distortion in the communication. A mild mistrust in certain areas. Possibly a mild need to control & ignore sensitive issues at both ends. I even feel that there's a repression of feelings on both sides. In my case it goes beyond bounds as usual but even on the other side it seems like a milder side of my tale. Possible that it may be resentment for over-doing.
The hand writing says that my image is mildly larger in her eyes than even her own. Its nice to know but I really wonder why. I seem so fragile in front of her. Is it my airs? Ppl admire that I aint afraid of anything or anyone. How deceptive!

Sometimes you really wonder whats worth & whats not. This is a lost case. When I start counting the changes... just the presence had made a remarkable difference. Nothing anyone or I alone could've handled. Why when I think that I could do it alone do I start falling again? I know that I need a strong hand & unfortunately this hand will be an irreplaceable one. Admitted.
Lets keep walking with our pretty smiles on. Time can open the paths where we are gonna be heading.
In the meantime, enjoy what you have. If u keep wishing the daffodils to change into tulips just because u like tulips better doesn't mean they're gonna change. Only you miss the essence of both. This case is best described by it.

Madly In love

2005-07-24T22:14:00.000-07:00

It's really not my fault if my mind gets stuck on someone. The only thing good about it is that I get alot of inspiration from them. I can't help if I love too much. I can't control that I think too much. It's just plain good that I find my own depths as well as my creative outlets so learn alot too.
I did this as u see it. I know I'm short of time but still I wanted to do this for u. I don't know what I'm chasing. At times I think deep down there is still the fear of losing & I keep trying to "prevent" that. I don't know. Too much psychology getting to my head I guess.
Perhaps these things don't even get credited as deserved. Maybe they do. They just make me feel good.
I love u so much that I think every minute and every cent is worth u. Yet there is that relentless fear that it may all end. I have so many questions to ask u. I think I'll really start listing them. The ones floating thru my head rite now are
" Do u actually try to push me away? if yes, whether to get the space or just because it makes u feel good condescending?"

I'd like to know the fate & value of these sentiments. I think I just feel resentful again. I don't know why I do. Insecurity I suppose...love unreturned too!

Like they say "Get used to it!"

2005-07-20T23:31:00.000-07:00

Time Lapse

Agreed. Once called up a friend several months later... there wasn't anything to share or talk about.

It is the time lapse I guess.

Good one.
the woman | Homepage | 07.16.05 - 6:36 pm | #

I can relate to that...it's sad really, especially when it's someone you spent 14 yrs with closely, then look back and figure out why? very nice.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 07.17.05 - 9:51 am | #

Empress, you bring about a subject I had not thought of in a while. I think I too will call a dear old friend of mine and catch up on old times. I hope that the result will be very different from the one you've described, but either way I will have learned your lesson when I talk to her.

Thank you.
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 07.18.05 - 12:48 am | #

the woman:
Yea..thats my case too...

MItzee:
I can even relate to that....now its like ..."we were children then....how cold we've become...

Cruel Angel:
Its so good to have u back with us.
welcome back.
I hope ur conversation turned out better than mine.
Blackempress | 07.18.05 - 12:55 am | #

SOmetimes we're not even expecting the coldness we find ...wonder why emotions of such value jst fade away for nothing..

Blackempress | 07.18.05 - 1:02 am | #

damn.

i looked at your profile. wuthering heights is one of my faves also..
ty | Homepage | 07.18.05 - 12:54 pm | #

I dare to say that the "ty" was unexpected.
Coincidences...

Lightning seems to fall twice in this place.

I wonder why.
Wiz | 07.18.05 - 8:15 pm | #

ty:

thanks. HOpe u like the work too. looking fwd to seeing u here.

Wiz:

I suppose ur rite! lightining does fall many times....Its nice when it does
Blackempress | 07.19.05 - 7:22 am | #

2005-07-20T23:30:00.000-07:00

Sounds familiar. But you wrote it well.

Nice picture as well.. Very indian.

Ps: keep the vibe going.
the woman | 07.13.05 - 2:24 am | #

Gravatar Perhaps this is the tragedy of true and unselfish love.

Beautifully written.....i suspect there are a lot who identify with this.
Alex | Homepage | 07.13.05 - 3:48 am | #

The woman:
good to see u here again. miss ya gal.

ALex:
I think i would surely agree with u....thanks
Blackempress | 07.15.05 - 3:59 am | #

I can totally relate to this post. brava.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 07.17.05 - 9:57 am | #

Mitzee:
Sad but true tht many oof us can...good t c ya
Blackempress | 07.18.05 - 12:49 am | #

NOt INsane

2005-07-18T02:59:00.000-07:00

O.K. So I can't get over people so whats the trouble?
Last night I ended up ghost writing to my invisible love. Nothing new, I know. I just felt Like sharing my thoughts at times. Its easier than penting things up inside. Someday I might let the truth be known. It isn't the easiest thing in the world to just say things as they are. Even now it's taken over 5 years to voice the fears & emotions that were stored for so long. The walls of silence maay never b completely broken down but there is hope of being over-heard.
I know that it will make little difference but nevertheless atleast it takes away some pain. THere I go talking bout pain again.
I love you.. I cant help it. Let us be off-beat, we'll survive. Its love that gives the pain. I never wanted to step into this. I know that u are better in my thoughts..it must be my idealisation. But I don't care! I have learnt so much. I have peeked into my own depths. I have felt my own hurt. I have healed my own wounds. Isn't that enough to get out of a person? I think it's the most Anyone could find in anybody.
I am paranormal. It's a term I prefer to "abnormal". I know I may be so. But I can't help myself.!!!!!! somebody save me! Maybe "No one", my best friend can help. He always does. :)

LOve's Despair

2005-07-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

Sounds familiar. But you wrote it well. Nice picture as well.. Very indian. Ps: keep the vibe going.the woman 07.13.05 - 2:24 am #

Perhaps this is the tragedy of true and unselfish love.Beautifully written.....i suspect there are a lot who identify with this.Alex Homepage 07.13.05 - 3:48 am #

The woman: good to see u here again. miss ya gal. ALex:I think i would surely agree with u....thanksBlackempress 07.15.05 - 3:59 am #

I can totally relate to this post. brava.Mitzzee Homepage 07.17.05 - 9:57 am #

Mitzee:Sad but true tht many oof us can...good t c yaBlackempress

Another brick in the wall

2005-07-17T22:09:00.000-07:00

"It is the heart’s misfortune to love.""So what if there’s no hand to hold?There may be a need for none."Truly. Same plane of existence!Heretic 07.06.05 - 5:16 am #

Heretic:seems we're all talking bout broken hearts. thanks for visiting.BLackempress 07.07.05 - 4:43 am #

So very true. So very true...Anand Homepage 07.10.05 - 11:33 am #

Anand:sadly but trulyBLackempress 07.12.05 - 3:09 am #

There are those that cause pain.....those that have experienced the pain. There are those that are loved......and then there are those that have never experienced the feeling.Perhaps true happiness belongs to those that pick up the peices and face life again......ready to love and be loved. Maybe true happiness lies in sharing the feeling with those that have never been loved.Alex Homepage 07.12.05 - 3:12 am #

once whispered.:.three wordsIt takes a dream to fill reality..... both merge in colorful lifeWiz 07.07.05 - 12:30 am #

Wiz: so beautiful. so true.BLackempress 07.07.05 - 4:42 am #

A vision of reality, the bridge in the image connects us to this immortal new world. I would boldly take that stroll across the first chance I get it too.Tovio C8 07.08.05 - 12:57 pm #

Tovio: Lovely. I would lov to walk over it too.BLackempress 07.09.05 - 7:37 am #

Few mortals passed through the long bridge...Most fell on the ocean of forbidden pleasures... and ended on the cold beach of mortality and sadness..Wiz 07.10.05 - 8:47 pm #

It is the boldness in the attempt is all that matters, for then the end comes either way toward unending blissfullness. I say Onward, Onward I go!Tovio C8 07.11.05 - 11:54 am #

Great pic.....and all those comments.....truly intriguing!Alex Homepage 07.12.05 - 2:37 am #

Wiz:Awesome words of wisdom. absolutely winning. Tovio:FORward is the only way to go...no matter what the end. ITs all we got. bravo! Alex:I'm impressed myself. thanks ..BLackempress 07.12.05 - 3:15 am #

Alex: very beautifully written. I Wonder if we'd b any happier if we all follow that.Blackempress 07.18.05 - 12:58 am #

Sweet times

2005-07-07T02:17:00.000-07:00

Me to my lady-blue:

“Funny how life turns out. All I can say for you is that you’ve been a good luck charm in my life. You erased the pain & life seemed so blessed having you there always. A lot of times I wonder I don’t deserve you & hurt you. Just want you to know that you’re the best thing that could happen to me. Love you as long as you dare.”

“-happy to have you as my closest buddy.”

Reply:
“That’s so sweet of you! I’m so glad to have you in my life. Sometimes I feel like we’ve known each other forever.”

The beloved's departure

2005-07-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

Not something I pray you have had to experience.

Very touching!

Alex
Alex Homepage 07.04.05 - 4:56 am #

Gravatar Lived through the receiving end of a similar episode, and really hope not many people have to undergo the pain. Not everyone will take recourse to poetry, eh?

Thanks for the info on the Beegees, and ur kinda generous words.
Heretic 07.04.05 - 9:50 am #

Touched! Time n again, the pain, the emotions, the thoughfulness behind your posts have left me speechless and at times bewildered too! What is it that inspires you BlackEmpress? You are blessed with a gift to turn words into emotions but the same words also reveal the real *you* sitting behind that mask of BlackEmpress, hai na?!
Fundoo Homepage 07.05.05 - 1:51 am #

Alex:
Life & experience .. no one stays. its a fact we must face when the time comes to say good bye.
thanks
its always a pleasure to have u visting. truly.

Heretic:
I couldn't help laughin at the end. i so vey much agree.

FUndoo:
Good gracious! YOu really can woo me with ur words.!!!!
BLackempress 07.05.05 - 6:02 am #

oh dear. that is quite sad. i hope all in all you had a nice holiday....love hurts...love is grand, but better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all....or so they say...i have yet to make a decision on that yet. i fear my heart grows colder as i grow older and bitter from past love loss. betrayal is a cruel reminder of what we once had. i miss cruel angel...he was so wise at such a young age.......lovely to have you back with us my dear.
Mitzzee Homepage 07.05.05 - 10:18 pm #

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*apologies for the self-promo.

Would be nice to know what you make of this:
http:// stillwaters.rediffblogs.c...html#1120563870
Heretic 07.06.05 - 3:02 am #

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Mitzee:
I like the way u wrote that.
"betrayal is a cruel reminder of wat we once had." so beautifully said. I miss cruel angel too. Thanks for ur kind words.
BLackempress 07.06.05 - 3:22 am #

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its wonderful how you convey those thoughts which are so difficult to put into words... you have this amazing gift of being able to say (write) feelings of that complicated heart...
very touching!
AmitKen Homepage 07.07.05 - 4:41 am #
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Amitken: Look deep down & it's there. the pain & the joy. ITs ur perception that gives my life meaning. thanks .BLackempress 07.07.05 - 4:47 am #

thank you, love your stuff so much! Angel is BACK btw...he's BACK! Mitzzee

Nobody's Fool

2005-07-06T00:32:00.000-07:00

I want to hold you tighter than ever. Not because I want you close physically but because I feel you may slip away otherwise. Why are some things so hard to accept? I don’t want this to hurt. I don’t want any kind of pain any more. Damn these emotions! I want you to aspire & stay at the top but then it’s so hard to let go.

I am so happy that you make it. I’m happy that you get to lead the clan, but will you forget me then? You will find another love & me here would have nothing but your memories. That’s the kind of things I’ve gotten from all the people who were with me before. They induced fantasies & disappeared. Then it was me alone to deal with my expectations. Why did people lie & lead me on even when I asked for the truth? It would be easier to deal with the truth than to nurse the wounds their hollow words would leave behind. They thought it was nothing. They thought I was as hard and shallow like them. I was fragile & trusting. Now I give myself to what could never bring me pain.

I love you against my will. I wish that you would disappear & flee out of my mind the same. But then you return & the feelings all come back to me. I often wonder if you love me or it’s just another one of those walks. What would time bring- a changed relationship & a handful of photographs or something worth cherishing in the end?

Love hurts

2005-07-06T00:31:00.000-07:00

Love hurts. That’s something etched on the minds for eternal time. All my concern is me. I loved you better than I’ve ever loved anyone, more than you know. It’s a love known little to mankind but perhaps your mortal nature deserved little of it. All you had to do was ask & I’d have revealed every part of my life to you. But I doubt that you were interested.

So go ahead & leave me stranded as you found me. Your presence does me little good. Leave me to find a life for myself amongst the roses others have planted. Thorns are my part the remains are theirs.

Yesterday is gone, tomorrow has yet to come, but today determines everything. Nothing will remain of what happened once today dawns into yesterday; all is forgotten like a dream swept away. So forgive the heart that retains the memories.

The legendary tale writing

2005-07-03T23:20:00.000-07:00

OMG! this just touched me beyond belief....this is something i've experienced.....you say it so wonderfully......reflection has made me sad, but your words can only make me smile. thank you.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 06.18.05 - 9:06 pm | #

Mitzee:
seeing ur name always makes me smile. Keep hope thats the only cure us broken-hearted have. To bring the pain in tis form for u is a pleasure. ur appreciation means alot 2 me.
BK | 06.19.05 - 7:59 am | #

Amazing! You truly intrigue me.....i wonder what inspires these
Alex | Homepage | 06.21.05 - 5:59 am | #

Alex: i do have an answer.....ppl & their lives. someday if u want i cud try writing something for u.
BLackempress | 06.22.05 - 6:34 am | #

People intrigue me too.....

But what would you know of me....though it would be interesting to see how I appear through your mind.

And hey......thanks for linking me up!
Alex | Homepage | 06.22.05 - 10:55 am | #

You'd never stop amazing me, will you? One of the very few people who can put words to their best possible use! Beautiful composition empress... truly e(i)mpressive!
Fundoo | Homepage | 06.23.05 - 8:31 am | #

FUndoo:
way to go with ur "expression"! absolutely flattering.
Blackempress | 06.24.05 - 6:55 am | #

Alex:
I'll try that now. Yea I do need time to figure out a person. KEep ur fingers crossed
Its a pleasure to link ya.
Blackempress | 06.24.05 - 7:01 am | #

LEgendary Tale

2005-07-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

thats it? two choices? :p
blogwriter | Homepage | 06.20.05 - 2:06 am | #

hey empress long time no see...Read the poem...I've written so many similar ones! I felt like you were walking the ground barefoot in search of salvation! You figure out which kind
Ellipses M | Homepage | 06.21.05 - 3:29 am | #

Who do you think I am? James Bond ?

You decide whatever you want, don´t complain!!! Just ask the damn knight something and the person will answer, and when the answer come you will know if it´s a guy or a gal!!!

Is that so difficult?? Stand up and decide your future kid!!!
Rely T. | Homepage | 06.21.05 - 8:05 am | #

Some things that te kid above said are true... you got to decide your future indeed... : |
Tyler R. | Homepage | 06.21.05 - 8:07 am | #

But Rely - you need manners to talk to a lady... you are not talking in a bar - she is a girl... Ever heard of those?
Tyler R. | Homepage | 06.21.05 - 8:19 am | #

Yes well wat can we do now!!
BLackempress | 06.22.05 - 6:28 am | #

Ellipses:
UR comment made me think....cud it really b?
thanks i like the other level analysis. lemme think over it
BLackempress | 06.22.05 - 6:31 am | #

check the e-mail - its time to decide
TYme | Homepage | 06.22.05 - 9:55 am | #

I've been reading your blog for a little while.....you got some good stuff going on here! Take care!
Roz | Homepage | 06.22.05 - 3:18 pm | #

TYme: Ok

ROz:
Thanks ...glad u liked it. THe pleasure's all mine.
Blackempress | 06.24.05 - 7:00 am | #

well, am glad i can be of help! Will mail ya soon. Cheers!
Ellipses M | Homepage | 06.25.05 - 2:22 am | #

Hey first time on your blog...nice blog...
Gangadhar | Homepage | 06.25.05 - 10:49 am | #

It's just a guy with long hair or dreadlocks.
Tovio (C8) | Homepage | 06.30.05 - 11:17 am | #

Time for a new post...
Anand | Homepage | 06.30.05 - 4:30 pm | #

Ellipses:
great to have u here...I'll mail u now that im back from my vacation.

Gangadhar:
Hi & welcome. Hope u keep enjoyin it.

Tovio:
Lets throw him off & pull off the mask

Anand:
Good to have u back. IN a day or two.
BLackempress | 07.02.05 - 6:19 am | #

Hi..Thanx for stopping by at my blog!!Keep visiting!!
Gangadhar Ambati | Homepage | 07.02.05 - 10:56 am | #

2005-06-20T23:25:00.000-07:00

I'll put my hatred for God aside for a moment. You may not feel it, but you're always connected with God. You need not find (or make) a specific place of worship for the Lord is within you and all around you. He knows what you want, and more importantly, He knows what you must do. Sometimes they are the same, sometimes what you must do isn't what you want, or even what's best for you. Look under a rock and you will find Him. Split a piece of wood and He is there. Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.15.05 - 1:01 pm | #
Yeah, and in simple words, God's everywhere. We don't have to make a special time/day for prayers. You get the drift. A good one. God bless. the woman | Homepage | 05.15.05 - 10:45 pm | #
God is patient, kind and tender hearted to those that are sincere in their need for the knowledge of Him. Cruel Angel is right he omnipresent, omnipotent and omniscient. Tovio | Homepage | 05.20.05 - 4:01 pm | #

I need to do that more often..
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.15.05 - 5:51 pm | #

Yea, I need to do that more often too. Sigh.
the woman | Homepage | 05.15.05 - 10:45 pm | #

I thnk we all do. In reaching for GOd we find ourselves.
BLackempress | 05.16.05 - 3:38 am | #

I find the essentials to life when I meditate long enough...nice refletive image you have by the way.
Tovio | Homepage | 05.20.05 - 3:50 pm | #

2005-06-20T23:08:00.000-07:00

An unfortunate ending. We should all observe and learn from the weakness of others.

"In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the second best thing you can do is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.18.05 - 1:42 am | #

Dark moments.

Awe-inspiring. Keep it coming.
the woman | Homepage | 05.18.05 - 5:29 am | #

I liked this text...
Tyler D. | Homepage | 05.18.05 - 10:08 am | #

wow...that was intense...very well written and a little scary, with good reason..of course.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 05.18.05 - 11:35 pm | #

CrueL Angel:
I know it's a rough end but i guess so many do just that. Dont want to face the future even if it mayb good. I'm glad ur willing to learn from people's mistakes.

the woman:
yea, they cud get really dark when ppl actually experience them.

Tyler:
I'm

Mitzzee: thanks. welcome here, I saw ur blog but dont know y the comments sction didnt post my statement.
BLackempress | 05.19.05 - 2:20 am | #

2005-06-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

that has to be the truest of comments.....to learn what you've lost after it is already too late.....a lonely little world we live in....and oh what a tangled web we weave. Nice Post...I really enjoyed that.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 05.22.05 - 10:21 pm | #

MItzee:
Glad someone liked it. JUst happened to be a true story that really touched me in a peculiar way.
Blackempress | 05.23.05 - 12:04 am | #

You know this story really hit a sensitive nerve in me that has similar emotional turns that this woman had gone through. Being rejected, smittened, betrayed, abondoned by a closest relative, my God and left with the minimal to struggle and survive on. With it the hard lesson of realizing that the simplest, most necessary things in life are the usually the best. Thanks a bundle for that reminder!
Tovio | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 8:02 pm | #

WOW !! Ya its true...u never know what u have got, till u loose it
hirdu | Homepage | 06.02.05 - 1:07 am | #

I will be in a white room, crowded, with words all around it, always changing...
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.21.05 - 8:18 pm | #
wat lovely webs u weave out of words when u put ur mind into it!
BLackempress | 05.23.05 - 12:02 am | #

I am an apprentice...
TYler D. | 05.23.05 - 7:54 am | #

2005-06-20T23:02:00.000-07:00

Love that movie.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 05.23.05 - 2:14 pm | #

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Nope. Didn't watch that. But sounds interesting.. only because of the way you put it. Hah.

keep it coming.
the woman | Homepage | 05.24.05 - 12:30 am | #

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Mitzee:
Thank God someone's seen it. me loved it too. thats like do'h rite?

the woman:
Np, its worth the watch. turned out better than expected
BLackempress | 05.24.05 - 10:59 am | #

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I enjoyed meself! A great classic!
Tovio | 05.26.05 - 1:05 am | #

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its not yet released here in India.... but it seems interesting, will watch as n when its here...
AmitKen | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 5:17 am | #

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Tovio:

AMitken:
its an old movie...classic. u might still find it with some effort.
BLackempress | 05.26.05 - 8:29 am | #

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I meant to say that I enjoyed this great classic movie meself!
Tovio | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 7:50 pm | #

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AMitken, I just found it on Ebay if you're interested...happy searching!
Tovio | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 7:54 pm | #

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Nice Entry!

Thanks for dropping by........its actually a bug with my journal. The page sometimes does not load completely. Try refreshing or reloading the page.

Have added you to my blogroll!
Alex | Homepage | 06.09.05 - 4:24 am | #

nice... once again!
beautiful description of the moonlit night, when two became one...
AmitKen | Homepage | 06.09.05 - 4:36 am | #

Alex:
Thanks buddy. Seen the page...really good.

Amitken:
Hmm....tis is the most complete feeling of romance ever.
BLackempress | 06.10.05 - 8:08 am | #

..
Tyler D. | Homepage | 06.10.05 - 1:12 pm | #

Tyler:
BLackempress | 06.11.05 - 8:37 am | #

empressive
salis | Homepage | 06.11.05 - 10:15 pm | #

This is beautifully written brings back lots of memories.
Tazeen | 06.12.05 - 9:38 pm | #

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.....one out..................

2005-06-20T04:12:00.000-07:00

Thats how life goes...one in....

2005-06-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

Could I hold u for just another minute? Just another moment till the stifling of this heart would cease? It�s the pain that stirs it. Besides that it has no other meaning. I would not delay you. I won�t hold on too long. It�s just the sense of loss that makes me quiver. You shouldn�t think of anything else. I have no ill-intentions. I have no other purpose. If you tell me that it�s going to be alright then I might stabilize but I doubt that to be true. I want you in my life & don�t know how to go on without you. I have done that for more than 2 decades now but how do you convince your heart that it can go on without someone?
I know that everything will work out in fact I�ve lived with the idea of the whole thing ending. But goodbye isn�t easy. Its bitter-sweet when departure is short but on the long run its better to say nothing.

2005-06-19T19:52:00.000-07:00

Random wishes
Guess what heart breaker? I�m gonna miss u so much. I hate myself for feeling this way but I�m only telling the truth. I hope I can stop telling the truth like this. Oh I have this sinking heart sensation deep inside. I hate it & I hate you. Its so unfair to love someone. I wish I never love anyone in my life again. It only brings pain

2005-06-19T19:46:00.000-07:00

My immortal ..original

Thanks for the comments & for those of u who ever write plz check, I always reply to each one* so do check whenever u guys post.
thanks again
BLackempress | 04.27.05 - 9:58 am | #

Even I am moved every time I hear this song. A touching song, with a touching story added to it. Powerful stuff, BlackEmpress...and coming from someone as cold as I, thats saying something...

"Believe with me. Even if we are torn apart, our feelings will unite us..."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.27.05 - 8:59 pm | #

Hey that is a great song...

The weather is very cold, I guess most people are cold now...

Hey C. Angel:

"Sandwich..."
ich..."

Your last line is funny.
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.27.05 - 11:33 pm | #

Cruel Angel:
I took that seriously. That's the imagery that comes to my mind. A young woman whose adopted 6 yr son died. This was the rest of it.
The song still brings tears to my eyes.

Tyler: I didnt really get the part u wrote to CA. THe cold was 'creative'.
Blackempress | 04.28.05 - 2:00 am | #

Gravatar Nice post. Ever tried your hands at writing short stories?
Anand | Homepage | 04.28.05 - 7:14 am | #

CA repeated the last wo.... ahm.... nevermind!
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.28.05 - 8:13 am | #

Gravatar Is that Evanescence - My Immortal??
coz I think I have both the MP3 n video n its one of my favourite too
n do u know that it was shot when Amy Lee broke up with her long time bf, while making that album? Her bf is in the title song-video

Nice post though...
arz000n | Homepage | 04.28.05 - 1:24 pm | #

Anand: I did, but i always feel out of themes. I had writen a few earlier

Tyler: Ooooooook now i get it.

ArzOOn:
yea it is. This is the imagery that comes to my head, it was a counter after i heard the song so it stayed.
thats news..sad...but thanks for sharing it.
BLackempress | 04.29.05 - 4:54 am | #

Gravatar I'd like to read them... Even I tried writing one, but the problem with me is that I cannot give much time to writing in a day. And with time, I start loosing touch with the idea in my mind and the thoughts surrounding them :-(
Anand | Homepage | 04.29.05 - 9:18 am | #

Anand:
I guess they'll be in the archive ..perhaps feb ..last waltz & the wait.
I like unveiling beauty but thats LOOOOOOOng..thanks ..hope u enjoy.
dont worry take out a while sometimes to jot down something fast. it works.
BLackempress | 04.29.05 - 10:19 pm | #

TYler D. | Homepage | 04.27.05 - 11:34 pm | #

Hmm.. Loads of love to him
Blackempress | 04.28.05 - 1:25 am | #

hi Yup exams finished ::sigh of relief:: and am writing a long mail to ya right now!!!

The picture reminds me of how it feels when one is at peace with oneself...haven't had such a feeling in a long time...
Ellipses M | Homepage | 04.28.05 - 1:59 pm | #

Ellipses:
gr8..time to sit back & relax.
checked my mail to find none.

I kindda agree with the pic idea. nice to hve u back here.
BLackempress | 04.29.05 - 5:19 am | #

you did not received my mail? :|
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.29.05 - 6:31 am | #

Name: My immortal

2005-06-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

Memorable Moments

? Nice text, beautifully written! Are you trying to write novels?? hehe

The tragic end was very sad...hmmm... love you.

The glass part was very aggressive... I hope that you are writing these pieces and you keep fine to our meeting.

Oooopps! Thunders striking around here! A big kiss in the wind!
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.21.05 - 2:40 pm | #

By the way the end is a bit sad.. lots... don�t you think, mrs.?
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.21.05 - 2:59 pm | #

its beautiful empress. simply a beautiful read. nice pic too.
the woman | Homepage | 04.21.05 - 3:17 pm | #

Yep...

This pic looks like was made with Max.
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.21.05 - 3:55 pm | #

3D Max (the program, btw)! heeh
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.21.05 - 3:57 pm | #

Tyler: hehe sometimes i think the same. love u

the woman: thanks gal. was missin u around. btw hope u read those lines i asked u to otherwise i'l paste em on ur blog. lv u
BK | 04.22.05 - 4:52 am | #

Boy! Now am I tired of saying, 'awesome'? I better go back to dictionary and try to find synonyms to avoid sounding cliche.

Not too sure if this writing is an autobiography of just an inspirational thought! Brilliant way of giving words to emotions. Yet another masterpiece.
Fundoo | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 6:25 am | #

yours is a world - i wish i could relate to. But never can. Either ways beautiful words never go unheard. And urs shall not either.
mcme | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 6:36 am | #

Fundoo:
it still means as much to me as many times as u say it, if its true. its really inspirational, just need to delve in alittle deeper & try to feel the persons.

mcme:
its really sweet of u to actually visit & post even if u dont care much for such stuff. give me another theme to write on, at times i feel bored of it myslf.
BLackempress | 04.22.05 - 8:40 am | #

Of course the end would be sad. One cannot expect good things to last forever. It would be childish to think so. It would appear that the girl in this story is a wind element. Winds, although generally very refreshing and graceful, are prone to changes. Take heart, wind. You already know what you must do.

When the winds of change blow hard enough, the smallest of matters can turn into deadly projectiles.
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 8:40 am | #

Is it just me or your lines carry a bit of humour in it, Cruel?

Just wondering...
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 10:07 am | #

hey, actually, i didn't get to read it. can you post it on my blog? i really would like to read.

by the way, you intrigue me.
the woman | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 11:53 am | #

Yes Tyler, for the first time in a while, my "final expression" carried some humor with it. I'm feeling, kind of upbeat today...

The Woman, were you talking to me?

I'm Ron Burgundy?
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 12:18 pm | #

I just got the feeling Angel... haha

You were very sutile, btw.
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 4:07 pm | #

cruel angel- no. if i want to.. i'll do it at your blog.. not at someone else's. not my style. so don't bother to reply.

i'm sorry for taking up this unwanted space blackempress.

missing you lady.
the woman | Homepage | 04.22.05 - 11:22 pm | #

Cruel angel : u added somethng woorthwhile to the post. i had fulll intentions of removing that line. well i editied it neverthtless.

Btw i enjoyed the interaction here. no prob u all r most welcome to write watever to whoever u want except abuses. love u all

the woman: i took that as a serious compliment--very heartilu.
BLackempress | 04.23.05 - 3:04 am | #

I MIss the sound of your voice...
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.24.05 - 7:46 pm | #

2005-06-19T19:41:00.000-07:00

Abstract

They will, if they can. Thy shall know, only if you are willing to hear. Thats how the rules in Universe happen.
hirdu | Homepage | 05.09.05 - 6:09 am | #

Gravatar Many a times I keep wondering about that long lost part of me...
Anand | Homepage | 05.09.05 - 1:42 pm | #

So many times people look for answers around them and around others. What few of them tend to grasp is that the answer isn't something tangeable that you can find after weeks, or even years of searching. The answer exists within you. Asking others is somewhat pointless. Instead you must realize that it is YOU who is being asked the question and it is YOU who must find the answer within yourself. You may find that you weren't missing anything all along...

"...And don't spend your time looking around for something you want that can't be found. Then you find out you can live without it and go along not thinking about it. I'll tell you something true...The bare necessities of life will come to you."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.10.05 - 12:14 pm | #

HIrdu:
WE do al wish that someone would tell us wat we're about. I'm not sure if anyone would say anything.

Anand:
THE 'lost part'...mayb we reall havent lost it. perhaps just cant acess it yet.

Cruel ANgel:
U have a way of bringing the situation upclose vividly. Perhaps just need a slight reflection to check the road to follow.
BLackempress | 05.10.05 - 11:47 pm | #

Wonder how one can express the pain within oneself so lucidly! Yes, it happens... at times we try to find answer that we 'want' to hear right? And that's when we get a feeling that the answer doesn't exists... but trust me there is light at the end of the tunnel. This probably is just a phase of life... this too shall pass.
Fundoo | Homepage | 05.12.05 - 6:31 am | #

Life isnt abt findibg urself
Life is abt creating urself
Tazeen | 05.13.05 - 6:34 pm | #

Fundoo: I like the way u said that. I think thats really the prob. thanks for showing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Tazeen: Hmm..plenty of philosophical people around here.
BLackempress | 05.14.05 - 6:21 am | #

2005-06-19T19:39:00.001-07:00

Anniversary

Aha! That was a very sweet gesture! M sure there can't be a sight better than that of a happy papa and delighted mom on one of the most memorable days of their life, hai na?
Fundoo | Homepage | 05.07.05 - 8:49 am | #

Gravatar It's in these small gestures, these small experiences that lifes potentially memorable moments fly by. Except, of course, Some few people, like you, hold on to them to realise the happiness these moments give. I am happy for you and by the way, I have linked you.
Aditya | Homepage | 05.08.05 - 2:59 am | #

"Do a little & it come back; Life's small meaningful pleasures."
A most excellent and wise choice of words. It is good to see that there are those who take the time to make moments like that memorable ones. It makes up for people like myself who let such things pass by with little regard. I encourage you to continue such a happy tradition. Such things give their participants meaning, and the observers (us) a chance to live such celebrations through you. I don't really have any unique words of my own this time, so I'll leave you with the words of an unknown german poet:
"Was du erlebst, kan keine macht der welt di rauben."
(What you have experienced, no power on earth can take from you.)
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.08.05 - 11:05 pm | #

Fundoo: The way U wrote taht was so sweet. Yeah it's really a nice sight to see them happy.

Aditya: I know that it seems burdensome at times & it is acctually somewhat awkward to do things like tis esp in the beginning but depending on ppl the warmth & joy it brings is worth takinga little trouble. thanks for the link

Cruel Angel:
Thats' really the wat it is with my parents. It depends on the sort of families we come from. We were demonstrated love thru occasions as children too(birthday parties ) this iis just a way to giv them the celebrations they missed all the years. IN the end its really tjhe small things taht keep u together. Thanks so much. Today i realise the truth in ur words about living thru someone else.
BLackempress | 05.09.05 - 3:45 am | #

That is such a nice thing to do. Have always loved surprises.. like who doesn't huh?

Hey, about the hello id.. mine's 'sweetwife' thought we need an email add to invite right? I'm not sure... gee.. I would like to leave my email add here but my email add has my name in it which i kinda feel uncomfortable letting ppl know my name.

You wanna leave yours?

ps: I can't help liking you too.. I liked you since the day I saw you.. i mean since the day I got to know you here. I'll be back later to see if you have replied. see ya.
the woman | Homepage | 05.08.05 - 1:42 am | #

the woman:
Yupsy! me love surprises too.
I'll check. i think it works only with the ID. No prob about the email. I can understand. U need not explain.

U know just interacting with u here, I feel we're quite alike. iN many ways u say the things i'm hesitant to. I guess we might b finding a part of oursleves in each other to b admiring so much
BLackempress | 05.09.05 - 4:00 am | #

African QUeen was a movie that proved to be better than I expected. It's a story of two different knds of people coming from different backgrounds & teachings who r forced to take the trip for better or worse & it turns out to be an adventure that they learn from.
The two best personalities of BOgie & KaTe put togther for a heart warming trip those the trails of Africa.
THe most touching parts are those when they squeal with joy at their team work & get through the rapids.
A very humane film that shows that deep down we are all just men & women with no differences produced by where we're coming from. IT's the inevitable joining of the hearts stemming from the concern & respect given by the other & putting their own fears aside TO join thier minds, hands & courage to overcome all obstacles.
Blackempress | 05.23.05 - 12:44 am | #

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My immortal

2005-06-19T19:37:00.001-07:00

A teachers love

Touching! Nice thoughts coming from a humble soul for a desrving teacher. *I wiped away the tears from my eyes, partially out of gratitude & the rest out of sorrow for not having her there to watch the cheering crowd. * There can't be a better way of expressing one's gratitude than this.

Congratulations on your professional feat pal. Never knew of your hidden talent... well it wouldn't be 'hidden' if I knew it already eh?
Fun-Da-Mental | Homepage | 04.15.05 - 6:38 am | #

... Wonderful story... brought tears to my eyes - will read it again.. Loved that you shared it... :' )
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.15.05 - 6:51 am | #

Sounds like a great teacher, worthy of respect and admiration. As a fellow performer, I understand the importance, and the bond of a great instructor.
While she may have taught and guided you, ultimately it was you who made the commitment. It was you who made the sacrifice. It was you whom the audience was applauding. I'm sure Ms. Harriett was proud to work with someone so dedicated. Don't forget to give yourself credit. Something tells me, she would say the same.

"Like a shooting star across the midnight sky, wherever you are you're gonna see me fly."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.15.05 - 9:44 am | #

Fun-Da-mental, Tyler & Cruel Angel: It was hard for me to keep my tears from falling while still smiling reading your comments. I've hardly been more grateful for any thing than for my readers. This is surely one of the grreatest gift of my life. I really mean that.
Its always a pleasure to have the ppl who hold u up with u when u actually get to the top, isnt it?

Fun-Da-mental: Thanks pal I suppose thats bout all i could do. I agree it wouldn't be hidden, if u alreay knew.

Tyler: Ur a hero with ur simple but deeply meaning words.

Cruel Angel: Word champ! I do hope she feels the same. Ur endings always desrve an applause, thanks so much. Such a lovely line. couldnt help imagining her as one of those shining stars in the galaxy & myslef as one of the shooting stars that she watched flying by & smiled proudly at. silly, I know.
BLackempress | 04.16.05 - 9:47 am | #

Gravatar have heard nice things about your blog and it was only a matter of time that I visited so here I am. A wave of happiness unleashed right on your first post I read. I am happy for you. Emotional and touching. I also must mention that apart from your teacher, you are also equally responsible for where you are, for what you achieved. Congratulations.
Aditya | Homepage | 04.16.05 - 5:42 pm | #

Adiyata:
welcome here. thank u for ur kind words. its honorable to get good remarks from talented writers themselves.
BLackempress | 04.17.05 - 5:00 am | #

hmm.. thanks for droppin by...

btw.. originals r tough to come across... not that iam lookin... and just in case u mean something artisitc from me... hehe.. wish i were talented enough.

neways, peace
mcme | Homepage | 04.15.05 - 7:44 am | #

That�s really nice, I knew you were into ballet but never tought that you performed on stage before...
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.15.05 - 4:18 pm | #

hey empress,

Been a long time since i came here...Gosh there's so much more to read now!!My exams are getting over on the 26th.After that, you have all my attention

I miss coming by here regularly...
Ellipses M | Homepage | 04.16.05 - 12:13 pm | #

heya lady, thought i'd drop by to say hello.. well.. hello.. hah.

A nice selected pic. I've tried that pose a few times. gee.. i'm hopeless.
the woman | Homepage | 04.16.05 - 1:47 pm | #

Tyler: life's full of surprises

Ellipses:
Thanks gal. was really missin u around. good luck for ur papers & do visit . Dont want my favourite ppl to leave, read the comment i wrote below urs.

the woman: Aha!
i wrote sometihing in the comment box nevt to the post, the lines written at the top were also meant for U & Ellipses. i swear i'd u 2 on mind when i wrote the names of those 3. check it out.
wow! someone here can do ballet
keep working at it, it'll happen.
BLackempress | 04.17.05 - 4:53 am | #

looove.....
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.17.05 - 11:21 pm | #

A teacher's love

2005-06-19T19:37:00.000-07:00

Mistake

im not a mistake... am i?
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.01.05 - 4:31 pm | #

Painful words, Empress. Painful, but smooth...like a knife. While reading your words, a song came to mind:

Lost in the darkness.
Silence surrounds you.
Once there was morning.
But now, endless night.
If I could reach you,
I'd guide you and teach you,
To walk from the darkness back into the light...
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.02.05 - 10:38 am | #

Beautiful thoughts... just as elegant as I would expect from THE EMPRESS! But why so much pain pal?
Fundoo | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 6:32 am | #

Tyler: Not as far as i know

Cruel angel: That's quite a song. Excellent lyrics. plz do let me know the name of it/artist.
Fit well with the words.

Fundoo:
Thanks. hope i could maintian that I'm beginning to think about that myself. I think i'll ask my shrink now:|
BLackempress | 05.04.05 - 7:24 am | #

Wiiiiiii!
TYler D. | 05.04.05 - 9:38 am | #

mistake

2005-06-19T19:36:00.000-07:00

Graveyard story

missed you babe. How are things at your end?

keep blogging.
the woman | Homepage | 04.30.05 - 11:23 am | #

pretty good as long as u r there. thats cheering up enuff
BLackempress | 04.30.05 - 4:15 pm | #

Your texts are mostly shades, do you notice?

From hapy to sad....from sad to happy.... contrasts... like a b/w picture... compositions where both tones and in-between colors are there to be understood, in their own way....
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.30.05 - 11:21 pm | #

That's a very sweet thing to say.

You have a pleasant week ahead.
the woman | Homepage | 05.01.05 - 12:15 am | #

Hello my loved/beloved beauty of the sea!

Guess who is back in shore???
Jack Sparrow | Homepage | 05.01.05 - 1:38 am | #

the woman :
Its blunt. I miss when ur not there. love each one of u.

Tyler:
Ghhez! now i'll pay attention to it. really didn't notice. thanks for telling.

Capt J: welcome back. missd u so much.
BLackempress | 05.01.05 - 7:49 am | #

Fears & hopes

2005-06-18T05:18:00.000-07:00

This one's good. Gee... I've stopped hoping already. Fear always leads to depression in my case. So fuck the world. I'm awaiting death. hah.
the woman | Homepage | 04.25.05 - 8:18 am | #

Well... I guess that there is nothing to be afraid of there, everything is so familiar and friendly...

It is just like borning again, I guess... but with a good feeling... Beautiful...

Like an experience that you keep waiting to happen again, and you remember it deeply...

awww....aaand... love you!...
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.25.05 - 8:37 am | #

In my case, fear leads to anger. So fuck death, I'm taking the world.

So which way is the right way? Which direction should you go? You won't find the answer here. It's within you. You may not think so, but your spirit knows where to go and what to do. Let go of the conscious self and firmly put one foot in front of the other. Your Guardian Angel will guide your direction and you will do what you were ment to do. Cast aside your storms of fear and doubt and your answers will surface faster than you think...

What you do then is remember this old thing you heard me say: It's the storm, not you, thats bound to blow away.
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 04.25.05 - 8:46 am | #

the woman:
Many times i feel the same but then lets have hope while we still exist

Tyler: U know if everything became familiar , life would become boring.
yes there are lovely moments to b cherished in life.

Cruel Angel:
I wish i could totally agree with u. I like the part of taking the world & the blowing of the storm but there are things that others put u through. that's the hardest part., when others dont see & u cant see their way either.

Thanks for ur views. people.
BLackempress | 04.26.05 - 3:14 am | #

Sometimes I fail to understand the sad feeling beneath these words lady! Your writing has been enchanting, captivating but then there is something; deep beneath these words that is probably not getting its way out! All I can say is you continue to amuse me with your ability to give words to emotions! Beautiful!
Fundoo | Homepage | 04.26.05 - 9:54 am | #

Gravatar Go simply walk through the door... Have no fear... Whats there will always be there. Its in your hands to decide your faith. "Yes you will be happy". Thats my prophecy.
bablu | Homepage | 04.27.05 - 3:53 am | #

Fundoo: I guess there is alot to all of us, dont u think so? neverthless tis gift of writing is a blessing for me & ur continouus support is relly really special.

Bablu: Sweet name
Thanks man, i wish it was easy, i have hope too.
BLAckEmpress | 04.27.05 - 4:57 am | #

Sure that you are sure.

You are so sure that you doubt your own sureness! haha
TYler D. | Homepage | 04.25.05 - 3:07 pm | #

I like that
BLackempress | 04.26.05 - 3:15 am | #

About the people we call Friends

2005-06-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

Now will somone define PRECIOUS here? :D Ok ok me firsttttt to comment this time! Those comments in the brackets are serving the purpose... pun at its peak! lol good one!
Fundoo | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 8:44 am | #

You couldn't be more right, BlackEmpress. Gf/bf's come and go, best friends are what truly last. I hope you've got plenty of people like that with you. I've got one myself, and indeed she is precious to me.

"Who can say if I've been changed for the better? I do believe that I've been changed for the better...because I knew you, I have been changed for good."
Cruel Angel | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 8:55 am | #

You're a special online friend to me, lady.

Good entry.
the woman | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 11:54 am | #

Hey, i´m not working but starting an art project... been a bit busy lately..
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 9:01 pm | #

Fundoo:
couldn't help laughing. U turned my joke back on me..lol

Cruel angel:
I guess many of us have learnt that. I wish i could do half the good job u do with ur "unique' lines.

the woman:
Feeling's totally mutual. Ur really special to me.

Tyler: good luck with the project. i need to fix plenty of things here.
BLackempress | 05.05.05 - 5:19 am | #

there's something wrong with the net..its not showing new enteries on any page. miss u all.
BLackempress | 05.05.05 - 5:23 am | #

I will atualize them because of the date you posted - for me is very mystical - all the numbers (5 5 5 5 23)

5 and 23 - They both are my favourite numbers and in numerology they are the same number!
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 7:09 am | #

Gravatar I never had the concept of best friend...so dont know wht to comment on this post....
Nicely presented
Btw, do BEST FRIENDS exist??
They look good in Luv triangles shown in any bollywood movie...
arJun | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 9:30 am | #

Miss, btw, you got a new mail? (since you lost the last one?)

hey arJun - i just heard about those triangles, i guess that i was not made for it - my style is more VS, one-on-one, head-to-head ---> guess that i just try to keep really close just one person, it just don´t work with more than 2....

My opinion, anyway!
TYler D. | 05.05.05 - 10:34 am | #

Arjun:
I have yet to discover that. Cant say for sure.

Tyler: yea me know numerology too. Thats neat wat u came up wiht.
BLackempress | 05.07.05 - 11:01 pm | #

Your choice of pictures just amaze me from time to time.

commendable.
the woman | Homepage | 05.04.05 - 11:56 am | #

Thanks ..
y dont u give me ur email address?

there r so mnay times i find such good pics on the net & often thought tht i'd have mailed em to u if u wanted to use them bc i wasnt writing on that context,

we do agree on the choice so if u want, u could lemme know.
BLackempress | 05.05.05 - 5:31 am | #

Gravatar Nice one...
Keep on posting such amazing paintings
arJun | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 9:32 am | #

About the pics... it's alright with me. I do have my own collection.

But I don't mind keeping in touch with you... getting to know you is a pleasure.

How do I let you have my email?

Hmm... cos I don't think putting up here is a good idea. Hope you understand.
the woman | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 1:12 pm | #

New post uuuuup!
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 8:15 pm | #

Oh....chess.....huh?

We can fix that...

New letter uuuuuup!
Jack Sparrow | Homepage | 05.05.05 - 8:17 pm | #

And the pictures get bleaker .. and the art gets more stringent...

neways... peace
mcme | Homepage | 05.06.05 - 12:39 am | #

Tlyer & Jack : thanks for ur constant visit.

the woman : i understand no prob. thanks for ur visits & compliments/

mcme: I had to think over that one!!!
BLackempress | 05.07.05 - 5:37 am | #

arJun : thanks buddy. I liked the serrealissm kindda faces. ..
BLackempress | 05.07.05 - 5:43 am | #

NIght -out.

2005-06-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

WHOAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

This is the greatest piece ever!!!!

Sounds like an angel work by the way.... Well done dear!!!!!!
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 4:30 pm | #

What a powerfully humbling experience; an emotionally charged meaning to hope and compassion!
Tovio | Homepage | 05.26.05 - 7:41 pm | #

that was wonderful... really nice.

'shadow friends'!!
AmitKen | Homepage | 05.27.05 - 12:22 am | #

Tylre: I think its quite clear that u really like it thanks so much...

Tovio:
I like how u said that

Amitken:
I think i like the last part best too..thanks
BLackempress | 05.28.05 - 7:09 am | #

Gravatar I might have fallen in love with u.....
kavi | Homepage | 05.30.05 - 3:24 am | #

If you find time, sometime, than read "Eleven Minutes" in a sitting.
hirdu | Homepage | 06.02.05 - 12:08 am | #

KAvi:
well .. I suggest to rethink over the matter

HIrdu:
I'm gonna get that book now.. I ve heard alot about it. thanks for t he advise/
BLackempress | 06.03.05 - 1:59 am | #

Gravatar Wonderfully written!

You reminded me of something I had written in a similar vein. Your entry inspired me to pull it out and repost it again. Do check it out if you can

Have a great weekend
The Hissing Saint | Homepage | 06.04.05 - 2:54 am | #

THe hissing saint:
THanks...it was just a random thought.
Blackempress | 06.08.05 - 4:57 am | #

Lemme hide my face,
coz I never matched thy grace,
your hands whispered to whip my soul,
you footsteps crushed my want,
you locked your eyes on my heart,

Lemme hide my face,
so that he shall not see mon tears,
the moon is hollow,
its the sun shedding his fires through it.

Lemme....
hirdu | Homepage | 06.01.05 - 11:59 pm | #

I feel like that almost every night. I so enjoy your site....it's unlike so many others. Do you mind if I link you? no offense will be taken if you are not so inclined.
Mitzzee | Homepage | 06.02.05 - 8:27 pm | #

HIrdu: beautifully written...but its frightening.

Mitzee:
I think something or the other bothers us all. I think thats an honor actually to be linked thanks
BLackempress | 06.03.05 - 1:14 am | #

You have to believe me when I state this; there is an invisible hand or a dark shadow haunting me while I am exhausted, weary, down and out, or at times feeling like I'm out on top of the world! It pushes and nudges me for pleasure when I'm down or to humble me when I am up BlackEmpress. It's haunting and frustrating along with their voices...ooooooohh, I didn't mention that they come with cruel, disruptive and deceiving voices too. It's Shamanism at it's best I believe.
Tovio (C8) | Homepage | 06.03.05 - 7:51 pm | #

Gravatar this is beautiful...especialy t hand reaching out n t face lookinga t it all....wonder how many times in history has this taken place...
curse thy fears...
cos they bring no tears...
nostalgiuz | Homepage | 06.04.05 - 7:43 am | #

TOvio:
If it disturbs ya, try a therapist. THey r just there to talk to u not necessarily if ur insane. if u enjoy the haunting & the way it turns out then enjoy
Blackempress | 06.08.05 - 5:09 am | #

nostalgiuz:
I didnt quite get the end. Yea this has happened be4 & stiill does. Animal instincts! i like te pic too.
Blackempress | 06.08.05 - 5:14 am | #

TOvio:
I do believe u & am concerned. IF u need a friend I promise to b around. aLl u have to do is ask.
Blackempress | 06.08.05 - 5:16 am | #

NIght -out.

Sins& sorrow Pic

2005-06-18T05:13:00.000-07:00

From where do thy get all these paintings for thy blog...are they your paintings

Anyhow, Posted a english translation of the posting you commented on blog. It feels full of substance now in english. Thanx for bringing the idea of translating.
hirdu | Homepage | 05.10.05 - 1:04 am | #

Yep!
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.10.05 - 6:30 am | #

Surelly, come to the ball!
J. Sparrow | Homepage | 05.10.05 - 6:31 am | #

I love the paintings too! Are these your art?
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.10.05 - 6:33 am | #

Hirdu:
thanks. read it. & its lovely. will b reading ur works more often.
no these rnt mine. i get em from the net etc

Tyler:

u know better my dear. Uu've always known wat im about.

Jack:
see u there/ we'll have a ball!
BLackempress | 05.10.05 - 2:24 pm | #

Gravatar Simply amazing
arz000n | Homepage | 05.11.05 - 9:15 am | #

Are you alright dear?

I love you no matter what and you know it. I am feeling bad in the last hours, don´t know why... I was afraid to look too much to that girl I told you about because at that moment I was feeling so much love and I would not like to fall in love with her because I love you, but i was really curious about the hapening....

anyway... I love yooou! Wow!I am feeling better!

Yayyyyyyy loooooooooooooove yooooooooooooou dear (sparkling eyes) you are a dream that came true
TYler D. | Homepage | 05.11.05 - 6:11 pm | #

Hi lady, hope you got my mail. Try checking your junkmail if you didn't recieve.

Haven't been feeling good. But i'm fine now. Not in the mood to blog though.

Ps: Email me.
the woman | Homepage | 05.11.05 - 10:24 pm | #

So, you got my mails?
TYler | 05.12.05 - 6:36 am | #

Tyler: glowing . yes sir i got ur mails.

the woman: see i told ya we'll find a way. got it ma lady U'll b hearin from moi.
BLackempress | 05.12.05 - 7:50 am | #

arz00n: thanks man. I couldn't think of anything.
BLackempress | 05.12.05 - 7:59 am |